I wasted a huge amount of time thinking about nonsense due to my illness and almost ruined my life because of it. I now have alot of regret and embarrassment about the actions and thoughts i had. I just wished i could of been normal in the first place.
I got my illness around 16/17 and wasnt diagnosed till 18
Added to the fact that the medication wasnt right. I still had psychotic thoughts and my illness wasnt managed properly.
Only now that im on olanzapine i have seen that.
Just be proud of who you are. You can have happy and healthy later years.
The same thing happened to me from about the age of 16. I know what you mean.
I guess so but my looks unfortunately have taken a tole due to all the stress im scared i wont meet anyone.
You might still find someone and else you can be happy with a 
or 
or on your own if you prefer.
Im not sure anymore tbh.
Don’t waste more time by thinking about how you wasted time thinking about things. I get it, as many here do, the lost potential freaking sucks. You have a few choices today, depending on obligations. Choice number one, you can continue to ruminate and ponder on what could have, would have, or should have been. Option number two, you can go do something you enjoy, you can figure out something you would enjoy if you don’t already have something you enjoy, you can put yourself out in nature, or you could do something not so enjoyable but is somewhat productive.
Break the cycle of rumination by deciding not to waste another day thinking about what could have been. It’s hard, I know from first hand experience. When I think of all the time I wasted due to rumination and over thinking it makes me so mad and I just think about it all more and then before you know it the time spent wasted on thinking about stuff that is now irrelevant is doubled, tripled, quadrupled. It’s a never ending cycle until we take a sledgehammer to it and break free.
Go for a walk and practice mindfulness. Do something today that you’d be proud of yourself for completing. It doesn’t have to be something huge, I stack up small victories throughout the day. I ate a healthy breakfast, that’s a win. I’m going to shower here in a few minutes, another win. I woke up before my alarm, win.
For me there’s mixed feelings. If I’d stayed well I very much doubt I’d have met my wife.I wouldn’t have my wonderful family here in the West country… But There would’ve still been difficulties due to the autism.
I think we can find peace with this disease when we stop comparing our lives with what’s expected of us.
a little true but i think different, i know its crazy asf…i think of other possible things. Ive been through some S myself…you know?
Mental illness is just a massive waste of time overall.
I’m sorry you feel sad.
I too feel sad about how things turned out. And think about the choices I and others made, and how with different choices things could have turned out bright and good. Or just a bit more luck. It also makes me angry sometimes.
I notice art made by people who went through painful experiences helps me a lot - music, poetry, traditional texts, movies. Just letting that feeling be that feeling, not diving in, or running off…and in the meanwhile doing life… a walk, a chat, a cup of coffee…helps me too. Doing things that bring me from my mind into my body, like dancing or massage. Laughing with people. Singing. There is still life left.
What can we do to help? Just listen? Tell you how we deal with such times? Comfort you?
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