In this home, we are not allowed to be alone. But I found that I am so dependent, that even if the help is downstairs, I get anxious. I need to work on this.
I know my mother threatened desertion when I was little which made me insecure. She told me she wished she had TB so she could go live in a tb sanitarium. I see I’m not any stronger, myself.
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I’m sorry pretzel. I get that way sometimes. I hope you feel better soon. I’m glad you’re posting a little more these days.
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The last thing father Said before he died was that I was a looser that would achieve nothing in life. And that I was a disappointment to the family because I had not been working most of my life.
What I didn’t tell him was that I felt very disappointed over the fact that he’d been drunk every day for 50 years and mostly didn’t work
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Im sorry you had to go through that experience with your father, that must be tough.
What a horrible thing for your mother to say. I’m so sorry.
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I have similar issues. I just moved alone and feeling isolated with all these horrible issues isn’t easy.
The latest I’ve heard is living alone isn’t recommended. I lived alone for many years before moving into a home. I prefer the home, now. Somebody to kick around besides myself - just kidding.
I get your joke 
but Im thinking your right man. I miss even the roommate I didn’t like lol I moved to an apartment building run by a mental health center but it’s not the same as having a real connection with a friend !!!
Honesty… my thoughts broadcasting delusions are worse at this place
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I understand that. I first remember thought broadcasting when I was without my friend and we were in a crowded swimming pool. It’s a stressor and so scary.
Yep… humiliating too. Thank God for APs!!
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