I think my father views me as part-stranger because I have a delusion that I am someone outside the family. Like we’re not blood relatives anymore.
He even seems to be getting into a protective mode in respect to my mom. As though I have the capability to vie for her attention in a competitive way.
Do you think my father is culpable here? I feel like I’ve been good at explaining, but all my shared thoughts just add up to an “elephant in the room.”
He calls my smoking “disgusting” for example… and I can’t help but feel like he’s referring to other things he knows about me.
Maybe I just described something “toxic” and I should know better. Circumstances make getting my own place a big step mentally, but perhaps it’s just what I need. Investing in myself is actually something I’ve never done before… so it could be time to take care of “Number one”.
I do not think he is doing wrong by you to say smoking is disgusting.
It could even indicate that he cares about you:open_mouth:.
Smoking is damaging to us and many people find it disgusting.
My parents find it disgusting too.
My step father I had always used to say I’m not a part of the family.
My mum never defended me or said I am a part of the family.
Men and sex wseemed more important to her than me.
She might of tried to drown me before she met him and he held a pillow to my face and said he would killed me if it was not for my brother.
My brothers from that relationship want nothing to do with me .suprise suprise.
I can not see anything you have written that indicates them him not loving you or being jealous of you and your mums relationship.
But I do not know .
I understand a vibe can do a lot of damage.
They bad vibe me out often like when I was doing rock n till dance lessons all of them against me were bad vining me n now they try to stop me from doing yoga…I can feel their hateful vibes.
Good wishes to you n your relationship with your father.
I think your pdoc should know how you feel about your father. Maybe your father has hurt your feelings in the past and now its coming back to haunt you as a delusion.
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