The stress we’ve been enduring the last month has made us ill.
Hubby is getting delusional thinking again and behaving strangely and I’m out of my mind with frustration and anger and worry and my own issues of sanity. Wanna cut again like I did the other night. I can’t cope properly myself.
To give examples he took apart his calculator last night because he said it’s electronic and so it’s not good.
Then he has these false memories and forgetfulness like I drove us to shop and on the way he asked why we are going.
And talks about electronic circuitry and that his mind’s opening up to things I won’t understand (things which are delusions).
I can get delusional too but it’s been ok but now it’s being triggered by his and I can’t trust him in this state.
All he needs is some of the meds I’m taking and it’s available right now but to convince him to take it, maybe he will when he’s receptive to it but I’m so frustrated right now and angry that we have to suffer like this.
He hasn’t had seizures for a little while so the delusional thoughts are kicking over. It’s either one or the other with him.
It’s easier to deal with his seizures than these delusions! At least when he’s having seizures he’s sane and trustable.
I feel like I’m living with a stranger when he’s ill like this and me too . I hate this ■■■■!!!
He doesn’t have a pdoc . Only I do. He supposed to see a neurologist as he has epilepsy but he doesn’t trust doctors anymore so very skeptical of them. I feel so alone and unsupported except on here.and I’m close to breakdown myself
I feel … A little like hurting myself is how I feel but I don’t that will probably work but I had passing thought of cutting wrist. I’m sorry maybe I shouldn’t talk about it on here
My sister listened to me gave me her love but she can’t help me. My mom and dad are 270kms away and it’s just hubby and me in this tin cat on hot roof business
@Hadeda , I know you were given these hotlines in another thread, but I really think that you should consider calling and talking to someone.
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
Where do I go to who do I talk to where is everyone Hubby took car and drove away now after altercation. Good. I hope he vreks oh really? Do i hope that? Yes ■■■■■■ oh do I? Oh alien girl is so ■■■■■■■ crazy craaaazy wahaaaaa
I’m sorry you’re having this trouble with your husband.
You mentioned cutting. I used to cut and also another kind of self harm. But I haven’t self harmed in 10 years. It is difficult to stop, but it can be done.
What I did, was I drew on my skin with permanent markers (Sharpies, for example), in the same spots that I felt like hurting. Replacing self harm with art! It helped me, so perhaps it might help you? It helped me get through the toughest part of the urges, and by the time I was done drawing on myself, the urges were much less intense.
To remove the marker from my skin, later, I used bug spray and a paper towel. Rubbed right off. According to Google, you can also try olive oil, coconut oil, whitening toothpaste, and makeup remover.
