mort, you are freaking awesome XD But what I meant is I want to live with some virtues, kinda like living the code of chivalry XD
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Well I have a long story on that. Skip if you don’t like people talking about themselves,
I got that bad habit from my Doctor of 20 years now!
Back in the 90s I had a fascination with samurai swords if people remember me from the old days.
My tagline used to be “I have swords for the fight.”
I constantly used to feel like I was fighting something before I found Seroquel anyway…
I found it comforting to sit with a katana and read a lot about them and Samurai.
Then I found out about Iaido which is a legal way to swing them around.
I found the mental discipline gave me courage and strength to survive the daily onslaught.
I was a little delusional about it and started thinking I was a samurai of sorts and I wanted to
study Zen Buddhism.
Now I had graduated from College somehow and had even taken Statics and Dynamics at the local
community college and got good grades.
So I wanted to sign up over the phone, that was the way to register then.
When I said I want to register the person said, No.
I say to myself, I got good grades and what do they mean NO.
Well I had just taken this samurai thing a little too far and was having stress at work and it eventually lead to another relapse. My Mom prays for me and I eventually got better.
And one day my long time psychiatrist mentioned God that I had never talked about that.
It shook me up. what! God? What I thought I must have done something wrong to be
suffering like that. And I was a little afraid of him like I was being tortured and punished.
But God is about Love and Forgiveness.
I think its demons and devils that cause Schiz!! Not God.
So I eventually started reading the bible again and try to pray and it all helped me get better and stronger.
Which reminds me why am I searching for answers at sz.com when I just need the strength of Jesus Christ.
I guess I had begun to try to rely on my own strength again and that never really is strong enough.
So with Jesus Christ who invented Seroquel to combat demons, I gotta get on the right path again.
Sayonara
Yes look up Iaido or Kendo and see if its offered in your community.
But find a real sensei, The Japanese are not into the ‘colored belt’ thing.
and they are pretty protective about sharing their culture with the gaigin.
When you get tested its pretty tough, the Japanese have high standards.
You usually have to go to New York or the west coast to be tested in the USA…
Hi, I am half Japanese. You can ask me questions if you want.
Arigatou Gozaimasu! I definitely will ask you some questions! Nihongo wo hanashimasu ka?
Oh yes I do!! My mum is Japanese 
出身はどこですか？
i dont know much kanji XD
Ok I meant where are you from??
oh. I was born in California, and now I am in Utah.
Ah ok well nice to meet you.
nice to meet you too. Welcome to the site!!
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The only japanese word I remember : Hajimemashite.
Favorite one to speak as well, it just rolls off the tongue.
I have the rossetta stone for japanese and I learned all of the hiragana and a few katakana, but I’ve forgotten all of it now. I wish I had stuck with it, but one of my faults is never sticking with anything. I love the language though. It’s really beautiful.
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Cute <3 thats adorable!