I am recovering very good, and acting as normal person

Health and Recovery
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The reason why I am not often to visit here on this forum because I recovered from my sz, I become responsible and handling our business every day. I am fit, and healthy both mind and body now. In fact I am taking 0.25 mg of my medicine. My husband told me, I can quit any day now. My life style is normal, the business I am running here is doing well. I don’t have many things in my head and if I have I talk to my husband or to the people whats bothering me, and to God Lord Jesus and Mama Mary right away and it helps to calm me down and my mind is relaxing and I can sleep well in the night. If I wake up in the morning I feel great, and I do my exercises if I can not deliver lettuce. Some times I am in my down side, my mind goes wild what I done, I go to facebook or taking notes those things inside my head and I wrote them down, I dont care what the people said about what I post there. The most important to me, it gives me relief and off my mind and I can have peace of mind and a nice sleep. Some times I listen to the music especially christians songs and it gives me relax in my mind and I can have peace of mind and I sleep well in the night.

I am often book especially to my problems to any body the things it bothers me. I do not care what other people said behind my back at all. The most important things to me the things it bothers me are gone in my head and I can carry on my life again.

My life is good. I am back my old life now. I am doing the best and great things in my life. I am back to my God again and having prayers in the night it helps me very much.

This month October 2014, I am free of medicine completely. My Etheist husband said to me that my God is helping me for my recovery better to have God in my brain because it helps me so much. My God is good and merciful and very good to me. That is why I praise my God Jesus Christ and Mama Mary for helping me for my recovery.

I am fit and sexy and healthy now both mind and body. I done a lots of good things through the day of my life. I eat nutritious food and no alcohol or coffee, and even sugar, and I avoid many things that it can trigger my sz. I carry on my life as normal person no matter what happen to me, life my goes on. This is my motto in life. I am thankful to my God, Jesus Christ and Mama Mary for all the trials I have had done, tears, struggles, laughter, and feeling bad and many other things and most of all the blessings.

I am thankful to Lord Jesus Christ for my husband new life and for the extension of his life. I am thankful also the warnings that God given to me as preparation, even I felt painful and I almost lost my husband but I praise to God that because of the help of Saint Micheal Archangel, Saint Rafael Archangel and Lord Jesus to for helping my husband to have breath again, this is why we brought him to the hospital. The Hospital two of them rejected us, it was heavy rain too. My life was so stressful and scary but I trust to Lord Jesus and Mama Mary for every things and to Saint Micheal Archangel and Saint Rafael Archangel too. Now my husband have pacemaker on his chest, and I am relief free from stress now.

The reason why my husband died because his heart stop beating for 15-20 minutes. I keep pushing my husband chest or CPR until he breath again and his body was very rigid like a wood when I touch him. When he breath again it was so scary his saliva became bubbles, and his eyes rolled upwards and he bite his tongue. I drove in a hurry to the Hospital at 4:30 early in the morning, and when we arrived at the Hospital the doctors check of him but later the nurses said sorry Maam this Hospital was full, better you will transfer to another Hospital. So nothing I can do, we are loading my husband again in the car, and I drove to another Hospital, when we are at the other Hospital, the doctors and nurses check my husband and etc. and after they check saying to me, sorry Maam this Hospital is very full better to go to another Hospital again. I insisted to stay to the second Hospital because of many reasons but the nurses insisted me not to stay the Gov. Hospital because its dirty and my husband is foreigner. Nothing I can do, we are loading my husband again to the car and I drove again to another hospital. Finally the third hospital accepted my husband and I am able to sleep in the walk way on the floor because the hospital is full too. The most important is the third hospital not rejected my husband and they look after him pretty well.

My husband was amazed me very much because my sz is no problems. I am not even panic or what ever. I am relax and pray to Lord Jesus and Mama Mary to all my problems and worried in life. I am often to many people even though I do not know their names and acquaintances and friends, and families, I dont care what they said as long as the problems in my mind was gone and I am relief. Especially to Lord Jesus and Mama Mary they are helping me so much to cope up my problems and to Saint Micheal Archangel and Saint Rafael Archangel they are my protector and guardians to all my problems and struggles in life. I am so thankful to them very much. I oaws my life to them and the life of my husband.

I am talking to the blessings too. Now my husband is having a pacemaker in his heart. An able to save money for a long life. We are going to buy another property next to our property. I think this month or after my husband arrived from his country. I am planing to plants more vegetables and herbs and arugula for businesses again so that we will survive with little pension my husband have. I will be more busy soon. I think I am the one who will process the land papers too. I will see how it goes. I am so thankful for all the blessings from God, and Lord Jesus, and Mama Mary.

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Thats some story - Sounds like you have been through a lot - I wish you continued tranquility and peace.
It seems that your way of handling and doing things is bettering your life, finding a good balance in life is important

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good god crest you’ve been through some ■■■■! sooo glad your husband is ok and you are doing well. nice to hear from you again and i’m glad you find comfort in your religion . best wishes for the future. jayne xxx

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Don’t make it acting. Make it real.

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dear crest, so nice to see you post again. after the tsunami that hit your country I was worried you were maybe killed? so glad you are alive and well. good for you.

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Thank you all to all your response and concerned. The typhoon Hayan is not hitting our area but its hitting in Tacloban which is in different Island very far from Negros Island. My Island where I were at is no damage only in Leyte and some area in Cebu too but the tsunami was hit in Leyte very far from Negros Island. I am fine.

My husband was still alive right now he have pace maker already and he is in Canada right this moment.

My mother gave problems to me she exploded the secret from my brother and cousin. Telling the truth and honestly of who they are in real life it is so painful and many people can not bear this truth words. My husband was involved too, my husband is the one who tell me, I must tell to my cousin the things saying he don’t gratitude for all our kindness and good things done to him in response to our goodness my cousin give shits to us. I told my cousin of what my husband said to me, to tell my cousin what going on, we give your this and that favor but why in return you give us ■■■■, we are treated you like human being and feed you freely and if we are the one who need your favor you give us shits. So my cousin very upset to me, and to my husband and he said he will kill us me and my husband. My mother just told me recently when I was very piss off to my brother next to me. My brother telling to my mother a lied story against me, and my mother believe him right away without any confirmation from me how true it is. They are making big problems to me, and it makes me so crazy like a volcano wants to explode. Could you imagine, I don’t know any things what my cousin said about me, I treated him very nice, like my brother, feed him, gave my motor bike to him, looking after him and his sister and to all families and I heard from my mother mouth he wants to kill me and my husband. I do believe him what he said he wants to kill me and my husband. But my husband explained to me, that the reason why my cousin said those things to me because he is upset, emotionally he can not take it the words no gratitude. I went to my brother next to me, I did confirm how true you said those words you want to kill me and my husband. My brother told me, forget it, I said those words because I was not in my mind. I told my brother why you hates me that the truth I treated you nicely, I helped your job to be done, and I was nice to you and protected you from your boss Mark. My brother told me back, forget what I said previously because I also have a mental problems that time, I don’t meant what I said to you. I explained to my brother that, its hurts me very badly. That is why, I have not tell you about my husband problems, because I thought you will be happy if you know that Graham died and live again. My brother next to me said to me in response, I am so sad that your husband was died and luckily is survive again. If you think I am happy, is not true, the truth I was shock and sad about him. When I heard that my brother wants to kill me was sad and shock about my husband situation, I am happy to received it, and I do believe him. Now my brother and I are friends again. But my cousin I also know he don’t meant it those words but I still confront him how true why he said those words that I am just telling the truth. Maybe it is so painful to him when my husband told me, to tell my cousin that we don’t like him to get inside our property. Maybe those words very painful to him and he can not take it, that is why he says those words that if they don’t like me to come here again, I will kill them both. But still, I will ask him so that I will know from his mouth.

My mother is not really supportive to me, but I do my best to be strong and do my best to fix the problems. But my medicine right now is not 0.25 mg anymore, its a 0.5 mg now. The truth is I want to blame this to my mother, because she is telling a bad words like your upset to your brother telling you, he wants to kill you but you are so nice to your cousin that wants to kill you as well. I was shock and surprise those words from my mother, that is why my reactions was very upset and like I am a volcano wants to explode. I am hoping this problems will be fix soon. But right now, I just mind my own business and do things need to be done here including our business. I have not seen my cousin yet, but if we will see each other, I really wants to confirm him how true and if I know the truth I just accept it and I want him to apologize to me and Graham and maybe I will apologize him too. Because I done a mistakes too, not only him.

Any how, my husband is coming now from Canada. Myself here, I am fine. I am hoping the meligram will be down again or no medicine now I recover from my painful reactions. My mother is doing her best to be a good mother but her best is not enough for me. Any how, my ideas is not the same to her ideas to be a mother.

Thank you to all for the warm responses. I was so busy here, I seldom to visit in this site. Mostly I am on facebook, or yahoomail. I am highly sociable person. I don’t care what people said but if telling me in front of my face like what my mother said to me about my brother and cousin wants to kill me and my husband it is so hurts and painful. But if just gossips and other people words I don’t mind them at all. If your in my shoes maybe your reactions is not good as well.

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I do my best to continue to live as normal person every day. This is why, I do to face the problems and find any solutions to my problems so that I can move on after the events. If I don’t fight my problems I will be a looser and keep thinking about it and feel sorry and it is so hard to move on. All my problems I says it to here, or facebook and most of all to Lord Jesus and Mama Mary and to my husband and acquaintances and my mother, and to my friends here too. I want to poured out what are inside my head and my mind. I don’t care what is come ups either bad or good or both but I have to live and survive in this planet earth, so my life must goes on no matter what happen to me. I don’t want to loose hopes and my dreams in the futures. To me, an able to survive in this world the planet earth we must keep going and keep fighting for myself for survival to either in families, relatives, friends and acquaintances, and to all the coming problems in life. I must face it no matter how hard it is, and do my very best to fix the problems or make it slide at my back. Forgiveness and Forget the pain and worst events in life, is part of growing and be matured. So now I am 37 years old, I must grow up and be more matured.

This week my husband will coming back again from Canada, it means that we can pay the property next door. My life will be more busy and productive again for our business. I seldom to come here, but I will come here if I have some things need to say. I do miss my husband though, I miss kissing and hugging him every day many times in a day.

Thank you to all the response and all the wishes.