I find it very difficult to have any insight but when I do realize I have a problem it still seems very difficult for me to try to explain why it is so hard for me to be productive. I guess I could say it feels hard to think and pay attention and not be overwhelmed. But the thing is I can think a lot about the world, and I do have various interests in life, from music to philosophy and so on, it’s just that it seems extremely difficult for me to be productive enough to really take care of myself and basic tasks seem like a lot of effort for me. But it is hard for me to really explain why other than that I could say something like that I constantly feel exhausted and that it’s difficult for me to think and plan things. Has anyone else thought about how they explain their own unproductivity, if they feel they are significantly unproductive sometimes? Thank you for your help.
I just really want to be more productive both to be able to take care of myself and to be able to give back more to the world but it just seems so hard sometimes. I meditate for about 30 minutes to an hour a day and do journaling every day and stuff, but when I think about how I “waste time” online (let’s say being occupied by reading about music or philosophy) when I have all this other stuff I need to be doing it just seems, well… dysfunctional. And not in a good way. Like I have a plan for what I want to do in life but I don’t seem to be able to make myself follow the plan even though I really do feel like my entire life depends on it and I will die prematurely and horribly if I can’t do it. An idea I had was to force myself to only meditate or do my productive work and don’t allow myself to do anything other than either of those two things, but that might end up leading to me telling myself I need to meditate 8 hours a day or something if I feel unable to do much real work. And I don’t think that’s a good idea.
I used to pride myself on how much willpower I have, which I believe is in general more than the average person, but I just can’t make myself do the productive thing sometimes. It’s like my body would rather just die and collapse and I can’t make myself do it. So I guess at this point I’m just ranting but if anybody has any advice or something I would appreciate it. Thank you.
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I know a lot of people here struggle to be productive but how do you get a sense of when the degree to which you are unproductive is actually acceptable or you are really trying hard enough? Because obviously regular people struggle with wasting time and being unproductive too. But how do you have any sense of what is normal or not normal or dysfunctional or as productive as you can reasonably be, with such a particular condition that is so unique to each individual?
I compare my current self to the old, pre-illness self. What I used to be able to accomplish and what I can do right now. And it’s a huge discrepancy. My lack of motivation, low energy and anhedonia are huge obstacles for me. But I am taking steps to overcome this challenge.
I know what you mean I just want to make sure I don’t have my thumb up my ass when in reality I could be doing a lot more if I pushed myself a little harder and focused a bit more. And I’m not sure how to know I’m not doing that.
Maybe it’s a matter of finding your passion, and a good way to find your passion is to think about what you liked to do when you were a child. What interests did you have? What fascinated you?
Finding your passion may not lead to employment, or even anything that you would consider practical, but it’s a good way to reclaim motivation.
I have an idea of the creative work I want to do but the problem is I think I just like absorbing new information more than anything else so that lends itself to “random” browsing on the internet… and absorbing new information I think makes me better at being creative but it’s not the same as if I spent all day working in the specific creative domain I sort of feel like working in.