I failed university but have lived a great life after getting onto meds. It’s a little different from most but I like what I do and life is rewarding.
Try to do one positive thing a day. Whether that is a walk to get more exercise or talk to someone different…just one little thing a day and after a week you’ve made some progress. Sure you will suffer setbacks but don’t accept second best and strive for something better.
If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a suicide prevention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries.
You win some , you lose some. You can’t win 'em all. You are good at something, you just have to find out what it is.
When you are schizophrenic you have to make adjustments and compromise more than the average person. I felt like giving up in the beginning, in fact the first two years I was sick I really didn’t accomplish anything except if you count that my family included me in many of the things they did and the places they went. And I had no close friends in the group home or the hospital but some people liked me and we talked and other people were friendly to me and I was friendly back. Not a whole lot of people though.
But anyways, yeah from ages 19-21 I saw no real future or had any real goals. But once I got out of the hospital, I did what they told me and took my medication and saw the shrink regularly and soon I became employed at age 23 and have stayed employed almost steadily since then.
Now at age 59 I’m looking back on working almost 40 years, I attended college for years, I’ve had cars, money every now and then. But my jobs weren’t being a lawyer or a doctor or a businessman. I had to adjust and I unloaded trucks, and became a park ranger for a couple years, and stocked shelves and did other labor jobs. I didn’t make great money but I made enough to buy CD’s, nice clothes, maintain a car, and buy a few luxuries along the way.
Maybe work ain’t your thing, but maybe something else is. Hell, get creative. I took a karate class when I was about 24 or 25. That’s creative! Once, my sister dragged me to a square dancing class! I couldn’t dance worth a damn but I stayed the whole two hours. I used play volleyball at a bar when my sister and her ex-husband took me along.
It’s a weird world, “A great big world with lots of places to run to”. RIP Tom Petty. But there’s activities you might be good at. You already know what you aren’t good at, now forget about them and spend your energy on finding things you are good at. You don’t even have to be great at them. Find something you are mediocre at and do it, it’s better than nothing.