I’m leaving university. I just can’t handle the pressure and everything else related to uni. So instead, I’m going to take some IT courses soon. That’s gonna last for 6 months overall.
If I don’t make it, if I fail my IT courses, then I will commit a suicide. That’s my decision and the final decision.
I don’t know why I’m telling you this guys but that is true.
So I’m hoping to pass these courses. I’m hoping the best.
Please don’t think that way !! It’s not the end of the world if you can’t go to school…I suggest talking to your pdoc and telling him what you told us…you need help.
If I can’t go to uni or at least pass some courses so I can’t get a proper normal job. Then what? I can’t live like this. I don’t want to…
can’t you get on disability? I wish you would change your mind !! There is hope for you I just know it.
I’m already getting it but it’s way too less to survive (I mean, they aren’t paying you that much so you can’t rent a flat and live by yourself). I feel so miserable.
Besides, I’m not getting any support from anyone, including my mum. She told me today, if I can’t stay at uni or at least pass these courses I’m done. It’s over, I will never ever live a proper normal life.
First and foremost you should get all your symptoms under control. Schizophrenia symptoms, as well as depression and anxiety, if present. Suicidal thoughts can be a symptom of depression, imho.
I don’t have depression. I’m pretty sure about that. I’m just being realistic about my future.
Ok, let’s suppose for a moment that all your symptoms are under control. What keeps you then from going to uni or succeed in an IT course?
My psychiatrist told me I’m very unstable.
I’m on medication, I’m taking it as prescribed.
Please don’t make a plan on suicide. That’s too final a decision. There are plenty of other jobs out there that do not require a college degree. It will not be the end of the world. Really.
Tell your pdoc what you just told us.
You’re putting a lot of pressure on yourself by setting an ultimatum upon your own life like that, you have time to accomplish what you wanna accomplish so please rethink this decision, and as hard as it seems try to find enjoyment from the little things and the things you enjoy. Thinking of you xx
Ok let’s say you are unstable. This too is a symptom that must be addressed with utmost priority. Work with your pdoc and therapist to find a solution.
What does this instability consist of?
I have recently come across a good CBT book - “Mind over Mood”. Just an example that there is help out there and you are so so young to be giving up…
Side effects of medication as well such as fatigue, drowsiness, lack of motivation to do things etc
If I could, I would sleep for the rest of my life
@mongolina, you are still in the early days. Things suck right now. But they won’t suck forever. It took me almost ten years to find a medication regimen that managed my symptoms without unbearable side effects. But now that I have, things are so much better. Don’t make school into a life or death situation. I’m 29 and just had to take a break from school again. It doesn’t mean I’ve failed, or that I’ll never live a normal life. It just means I have extra struggles in my life that my classmates don’t have. Same with you. It usually takes us longer than average to complete our degrees. And that’s okay. Some of us never get our degrees, and that is okay too. A degree is not a measure of your value as a human being. You are worth it, no matter what. You will need to work with a therapist until you actually believe that.
@mongolina I can’t believe you?
If you fail suicide?
I may never live the life I strive to live.
But our lives are priceless.
I wish to live as long as possible.
Better to live for 100 miserable years than 99 happy ones.
I came close to dying from a suicide attempt, and let me just say this, the problems I was so worried about then that made me want to end my life no longer matter very much to me. It would’ve been a huge waste if I had succeeded. And it would’ve devastated my Mom and Dad and my cousins.
I’m taking one computer class at a time at my community college because it’s all I can handle right now, and I’m 23 years old, so I am already beyond the normal college age, but that’s not going to stop me from trying to get a certificate in IT.
But if I never get that certificate, it’s still okay. I have two part time jobs and I will just keep working, and keep looking for better jobs along the way.
Don’t give up. Life can be fun and you don’t want to miss out on it.
Yep. Kinda in a similar situation here. I’m trying to get my meds sorted out and get into counseling. You’re doing better than I am. I quit school because of my psychosis problems. Now I owe the school money. So eventually I am going to take online school courses. I’m not as bad as I was yesterday but still on edge.
We can, you can do it too!
Don’t listen to this subliminal propaganda, non-normies can live a very happy life even without a job, a family and some passions. 
Life finds a way, just believe in yourself! Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Just feel good, don’t be too fatalistic.
Schooling will always be there, and if you need work quickly there are temp agencies.