I am disgusted by myself in the mirror

Gained 165lb, 44 BMI, taking meds for high blood pressure, high cholesterol, diabetes and schizophrenia, still have severe negative symptoms. I have lazy eye strabismus and both eyes can’t be aligned. I have many pimples on and around my eyes from high cholesterol. I had a 4-pack abdominals before sz and now my belly is bigger than my 70y.o father’s big belly!

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Love your self for these these things

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I look like a monster, like Shrek with pimples more precisely.

dont mind me sharing my thoughts here, “it is ok to not like what your looks are, but it is ok to accept what you are now”, you can change your appearance to what your desires are to a certain extent.

Maybe don’t look that often.

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Yeah when they first told me I had diabetes I stopped eating all sugary products and gained more weight. Maybe you can turn it around but for some of us it becomes pretty hopeless. One depressing thing to me was that I realized some time ago that my looks were just about my only selling point socially and once it was gone that was pretty much it. (funny for a man to say that huh but then again it ain’t) But my sympathy won’t get you through your life. You’ve got to find something to do that makes it worthwhile and unless you are ready to accept other obese people or find some good looker who likes big men (there’s some out there I hear) certain things may be out of the question. (I think you know what I’m talking about.)

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