For about a week, I’ve been in a slightly mixed episode (hypomania and depression). But today, I think I’m more manic (instead of the lesser hypomanic).
Hubby and I discuss EVERY purchase, to stay within budget. He manages the budget. I am not capable of budgeting. Well, I bought some things today, and I didn’t tell Hubby…
And I know I’m not supposed to post on the forum while under the Influence, but I’ve had a few drinks. I’m supposed to limit to 2 per day, and not drink every day. But I’ve gone over the daily limit, today.
I feel like breaking down.
Not sure what to do. Hubby will be home soon.
I’m thinking about going to sleep and never waking up.
Something is wrong with my brain. Can anyone ever fix it?
Will the hospital even help? I feel like I’m a case that can’t be helped.
Hey! I’m really sorry you’re in a rough spot. I don’t have any personal experience with mania, but I can definitely say that if it feels like you’re heading off the rails, the hospital is the safest place to be
Thank you for the response, Miss Hannah. I am honestly terrified of the psych hospital, because they take away my insulin pump and don’t know how to take care of a type 1 diabetic… But I’m kinda thinking I just need to go. I might kill myself if I keep going like this.
I understand your fears. But the hospital certainly wont put your life in danger. If you feel suicidal right now, I would immediately call a friend or family member until hubby gets home. Then have a talk with him when he gets home. We are here for you too. I wouldn’t lie down and take a nap right now. Engaging in some activity, painting, drawing, watching tv, talking to a friend, would be better.
Hi… I agree you should try going to the hospital and call someone for support until your husband gets home. I am sorry you’re going through this. I know you will pull through though
Calling a suicide hotline could really help. Do you have a safety plan to go on? Call hotline and talk to someone who can help you take steps to be safe if you don’t have anyone else to call. They might be able help you to get to the hospital.
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
Hey, everybody, my husband came home soon after I posted this. He’s been keeping me safe. I’m going to take some sleep aids and try to get through the night.
In the morning, we’ll see how I’m doing and go from there.
Definitely agree to be transparent with your husband, if you feel like you need to go to the hospital then go, absolutely no shame in doing that at all. that’s what it’s there for. you are not alone, we’ve all been through something similar at one point or another. you’ll get through this!
