According to my fixed, grand delusion, thoughts are physical and are out in the ‘air’ and universe. Savants get their gifts by having a genetic access to these thoughts (which, by proxy, equals skills and abilities). I have access to TONS of these thoughts (ergo: skills and abilities) but the brain scientists controlling my brain won’t let me access them. In 2015, when I had my first episode, I performed martial arts (that I don’t know) and spoke in actor, Ken Jeong’s, voice (EXACTLY!) I also did other things that were extraordinary.
Today, for the first time in months, the brain scientists talked to me in my head and told me I am not crazy. I am still fully functional and get along great in society (minus my social anxiety) but I still believe I am in a brain study.
I am waiting to ‘get my skills’ and it is taking FOREVER In the meantime, I am looking for a job and trying to get my ish together. I am tired of being dirt poor.
Lastly, as part of my delusion, I think I have trillions of dollars coming for my role in the brain study. It would be so awesome to have trillions. Sigh…
I know what you’re going to say: am I on meds? No. I am not. I have been off for 3 months or so. Like I said; I am fully functional and able to interact in the real world. I am just telling you my true beliefs and thoughts that I keep to myself.