Is it my fault to have become so bad? the doc of my father have said that ive chosen in the past the bad side…
so yeap… maybe i really suffer because of my hate etc…i met a lot of ill people and they were all loving for the most of them… why me i cant love anymore? I lost my emotions for that i think…why i just cant chill finally and be good? sometimes i am just an hypocrite… but i was worse. now i try to smile to others at least…
why the fear of when my father was beating my mom entered in my soul in the time when i was kid? The fear is something bad… it made me crazy thats for sure… why some others experience the same thing and they dont get bad?
i saw the video of sinead o’conner. at least she has the guts to say that she loves the others despite her illness. its courageous…
and for the most of the time i suffer mostly from this inner conflict-that i am bad, useless and then i have fear… gosh, my meds dont work,hahah 
I still like you 
even if you didn’t end up like those other people you still went through a lot with your parents. Not coming out of that normal is ok. I went through my step mom mentally abusing everyone in the family to the point of rage than exhuastion I didn’t come out of that so happy either. But now after so many years of living by myself and with positive people i feel better!
I really appreciate you telling us this story. I can tell you really care about yourself and about others. Sending your way
my ill friend gets better cause she was more loved than me… its unfair…
Yes I understand that. But it’s important to never give up
but its a crime Arturo!!! my father destroyed my life! i want to punch in the face that friend of mine now… she is spoiled as ■■■■ plus she never remembers her episodes of sz while she gets aggressive. did she suffered as me? and she has the guts to ask me with her shitty wide open eyes why i dont go out. wtf? cant she understand the mortifying depression of mine? nobody of you here didn’t leave in an abusive family. you make me just realize that what was happening in my family wasn’t absolutely not normal… i spent years trying to justify my parents… and now i am ugly, stuck in this shitty apartament with no love from anybody.
you know what? my ex told me that he would sleep with this ill friend of mine, yeah…
I know. What your father did was cruel. And what your ex said was uncalled for. But I still like you just show them who you are and demand respect for that! You are no crime for being what you’ve done