So yes, it just crossed my mind… i guess meds are working… i said terrible things to my family, i hurted them… I was soo cold for years with them… its sad 
. I was under schock i guess when i landed in the psychiatric hospital. It lasted for years. Now this should change i guess. Probably i start to come back to the reason and the “normal” feelings… its still fragile here cause i still have suicidal urges… but whatever… i said ■■■■ to the guys who hurted me. Tbh, sometimes this kind of love drives crazy…
2 Likes
I’m glad the meds are helping. It’s a good idea to apologize to people we hurt and aim to not do it further.
3 Likes
Yeap,led, i went really crazy for years… All this went too far… i hope i will handle this and not kill myself now when i start to “realize” the things… i am still trying to forgive myself…
6 Likes
It’s ok @Anna1
Forgive yourself.
3 Likes
Hey, I’m basically in your position. I used to say and do what I wanted with no regard for my impact on others and now I’m facing up to the consequences. I hope we can both forgive ourselves and move forward. Hugs 
2 Likes
Oh, thanks antidepressant… me i just went too bitter, too hatefull and envious… But its still an illness, i suffered as hell because of all this 
. Whatever… Maybe my meds will finally start to work, i hope so. It will be 3 years soon that i stay on the same med. Maybe sometimes they really work after years, cause i was very severe case too…
2 Likes
Yeah I went crazy for years and couldn’t even see it. Said regrettable things too. How can you blame yourself now if the meds have only recently woke you up? Let by gones be by gones. You have today and then tomorrow.
2 Likes
I hope you will forgive yourself for the things you’ve said that you regret now. Don’t be too hard on yourself.
I hope your meds will work and you will find some peace @Anna1.
Thank you 
. Its a bit tiring for me that I feel the normality just for seconds… The rest of the time, I suffer less now that I am on meds, but I still have quite painful symptoms often. Even here ive heard from some of you that it took years for the meds to work. I just have to hope that its my case too. I think I make efforts too. Maybe not enough which makes me feel guilty a bit and worried, but whatever… Idk why the good is so slow in my case 
.
1 Like
I don’t mean to be the negative voice here but you shouldn’t say whatever to suicidal urges. If they are a continuing presence please get those ironed out as well.
Just thought I’d say.
1 Like
This topic was automatically closed 90 days after the last reply. New replies are no longer allowed.