This might be a serious or disturbing topic for some or maybe we’ve talked about it before but have you experienced humiliation during psychosis?
For me, some of the stuff I experienced were between my friends and family. I shouted a lot at a dinner once. Then i called a friend of s friend, i thought he wanted to marry me. Then i messaged him a humiliating romantic note on facebook. He wasnt even a good person. He enjoyed my humiliation. 
Yeah I’ve got some of that kind of shtuff in my past… a month or two after my symptoms really manifested I tried to kiss a female coworker… while at work… in the middle of everyone… just marched in there and tried to do it…
psychosis sucks… lesson learned though…
then I’ve said countless psychotic things to people… after I started to recover my friends started to tell me about how nonsensical the ■■■■I was saying was…
so I’d just relax… maybe it did hurt your reputation a bit… but the people who really care are going to overlook that… it’s almost like filtering out the bad folk in your life.
I’ve had to do this on many levels in different to make either people grow up or get out my life regarding overt shallow snide judgement of people… but that wasn’t through embarrassing stuff like that… I’m glad my family members don’t tied me to the past of my psychosis… nor do my good friends… as far as the coworkers and people drove me insane with their snide small minded playground ■■■■■■■■mentalities… good ■■■■■■■riddance…
The funny thing is nobody knew i was sick. My illness is silent and i dont talk a lot. So people around me just think im dumb or something because of the things i do. Im still learning to let go. I had an experience with a sociopathic woman though, she ruined my life and i still havent forgiven her.
What is your opinion about this @Azley
In general im a very loving and forgiving person. I can not tolerate the enemy concept. Do you think i should reconcile with these people? I might get hurt again though. So i dont know
They ruined my life. I have never experienced such hatred, pride, arrogance, bitterness and vengefulness from anyone in my life. They’re like snakes. 
You’re on the right track that’s for sure…
Sometimes it is tough to forgive… even worse when you can’t escape people.
Regarding the other people. I’d start by evaluating their importance to you. If you need their friendships… if you can tolerate some people floating about out there with a negative opinion of you(when they probably aren’t even thinking about it.)…
If they are inescapable then yeah you might want to make attempts to re-establish comfort and acceptance with them.
This could be done by coming out about your mental illness… It’s another one of those filters… who’s a stigmatic ***** and who’s not… you might even warm a few souls by letting them see an example of someone with mental illness who is a good caring person.
I would say though… it is probably just best to let go if you can… if you feel like they could hurt you I’d exercise caution and maybe break it down into baby steps you can make when you are feeling strong and confident without much risk…
You are a wonderful person… and an artist… you are certainly not dumb… try to feel assured of that inside and their opinions aren’t going to matter so much.
you’re last statement there does make it seem like those folk don’t deserve your attention… but people do grow up over time. I’ve reconnected with a lot of old friends who for a long time I never wanted to see again.
I’d be open-minded about all of them and treat each one separately… but focus on finding happiness for yourself and in yourself… every one lives in separate worlds… never lose sight of working on yours…
yeah… that makes sense. I will let it go once and for all. Not worth it honestly. I will focus on myself and my happiness.
:o) Thank you for your kind words. If I get ill one day and I talk to you, you will change your mind 
whatever… life is short… wisdom from your grandmother.
Time has healed the humiliation/ embarrassing times I had during psychosis. But I do still have issues with the way I was treated by medical staff during those times.
Yo I yelled at dinner once too sleepyway
Many embarrassing things.
I also embarrassed myself with a girl who was a bad person and laughed at my psychosis and many other things.
Someone who enjoys another person’s humiliation is probably sadistic and controlling. You’re lucky that guy didn’t want to be with you.
Yeah could be. I moved on. I just had to accept it. I didnt even like him.
ive never experienced humiliation during psychosis i was in my own little world and aware that most other people didnt understand , were surprised and that i wasnt acting in a socially unacceptable way but i didnt care and wasnt embarassed or humiliated in the slightest honestly -after a certain episode involving me going into the church across the street from my house and doing a number of things during service that were very unusual that God directed me to do beginning with walking in while everyone was seated and service was starting with my hands raised up above my head pants rolled up to the knees and wearing " the first shoes i saw in the closet " which were some old beat up fishing shoes definately too big . yes later i was a little embarassed but it wasnt any intense and didnt last i think it depends on how social you are and how important the people are to you who you act out in front of i really am a social recluse i didnt go to the church and dont put a lot of importance on what strangers think about me -
yeah that sounds reasonable. we shouldn’t care what other people think of us. but society has a lot of tricks… you just sink into it in time.
sleepybug, I had many humiliation due to psychosis, I waited for people that do not exist at the airport, I was there to pick them, I also brought red roses for a ghost woman, just to exemplify. The good thing is that it is temporary, now I feel much more clever and lucid. If I were you I would just remember those things as “funny” facts from psychosis. I would not be sad, now that you recognize the “fallacies” it a signal you are not acting like that any more.
Yes. I have bitten people, destroyed a garden in front of my friend, and even talked to a chicken nugget. I hate episodes and need to readjust my medication. It is awful if he enjoyed that. I once believed I was in a relationship even though the actual relationship had ended. It was awkward but my ex-boyfriend understood my delusion and never used it against me.
Bahahaha, I am glad I’m not the only one
i once thought a foreign one-time-date was a secret agent who had embedded telepathic messages in my mind. Like a year after our last date, I called him out of the blue to see if he’d in fact recognize a “code word.” He didn’t even remember my name. I’d spent like five months “hearing his thoughts” and I thought he was going to take me away. No go.
I once couldn’t stop from giggling to myself during art class. It was all quiet and my art was making me laugh because the model I was drawing, once drawn on my paper, wouldn’t stop talking (I could hear her thoughts, or so my illness had me believe). It was humiliating. My instructor came over and asked if I was doing okay, and did I need to go home? Ouch.
Then, there was like every interaction with police. They always let me know how far off from reality I was and that humiliation still stings. They’d do the “we’re not going to say anything until you answer the question” thing and when that didn’t work, they’d start doing some kind of body language thing (i.e. tapping foot, tapping fingers on desk, putting hands behind head) that my sz brain took as a secret message…made things worse. ugh. glad it’s been since 2008 since I last had one of these humiliating interactions.
There was this girl who I made a play for, and she rejected me roundly. Then I got to watching her, and I was so glad she rejected me. She would have driven me crazy!
I’ve definitely experienced humiliation while in psychotic episodes. However, I can’t really remember any incidents other than a particularly embarrassing one in which I really had to pee but I didn’t want to go to my bathroom because I thought that there were demons in the mirror. You can guess what happened next. I managed to clean it up and I don’t really beat myself up as much as I did when it had recently happened since I understand now that I was psychotic and scared.
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