I’ve tried moonwalker, I’ve tried. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I will look dead at them and not remember. The only thing I do consistently is brush my teeth and shower. I’ve tried putting them in the toothbrush cup and in the shower. I’m just not very intelligent for that kind of thing. i hate it.
I’m feeling like no one can see my perspective. It makes me sad. In my heart I do not want to be on meds. I react so badly to them. And because of that, starting them back up means inpatient for me and I don’t ever want to do that again.
A therapists job is to help you get to the point where you can solve your own problems. A pdoc is to do the same but also to medicate. They’re meant to push you into meds. It’s literally their job. I don’t want to be tricked into taking them. I’ve seen plenty of pdocs and they all want me on meds. What’s so bad about being different if you can still function and are not harming anyone?
I’m really sorry I’m not sure I completely understand.
I mean she leaves a lot of time for me to think about it and answer but I have to think of everything that has happened since last session and it takes me forever to respond.
Have you ever considered getting injections? That’s usually recommended to people who can’t remember to take them. For me I just make sure to take my meds with my meals so it became routine, but sometimes I do forget as well.
It’s your body and mind and your choice but don’t say all of us didn’t warn you 
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Brittany I feel your pain. I was also diagnosed schizo affective and am still in 2 minds if that what I really am. I’ve stopped taking my anti psychotics cause they make me feel terrible. I tried 5 different kinds including injections and the side affects are just too much for me. I do however realise the lithium and anti depressant has helped me so I’m staying on that which is nice. I think my pdoc has become a trigger for me which sux. Anyways wish you best of luck
Much appreciation for the warnings. I know they are all with good intent so thank you everyone. Sorry I’m annoyingly stubborn about this.
I’ve considered injections. But I haven’t done enough research on them. I’ll put that on my task list so that way when I do need to get back on medication I’ll have a plan of action. Thanks for reminding me about that.
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Maybe we are in the same position. It’s very frustrating. What does the lithium do for you? My antidepressants have never helped me become happier, just less sad and more nothingness. I hate them.
As for your pdoc is she/he just a prescriber or the person you practice therapy with?
I also have a lot of very bad side effects caused by the medication. No emotions (can’t feel joy or love), no libido, no desire to do anything, not chatty, etc.
But what is different about my case compared to yours is that my psychiatrist actually offered me to stop the medication just to see what would happen. And I refused! I was very surprised by her proposition and I thought it was a little bit irresponsible from her. I’m way to much scared of becoming sick again. Despite the side effects, I’m in a lot better condition than if sick. And if I have a breakdown because I stop the antipsychotic, how can I be sure that taking the medication again would make me healthy again right away!? What if I stay sick forever and the medication doen’t have any effect on me this time?! What if I lose my job because of that?! I can’t take so much risks and play with my health!
What do you think?