Cause after years of illness, even maybe since kid, I find myself impatient in the evenings… In the day I am calmer, which I need too, but I still worry a lot about my future… I have those questions about the bad in every of us, which ill have probably to embrace one day, but I am still paranoid about a bunch of things yeah…
But I need to get better a bit now. I am not sure, but I find that the Zyprexa in the evenings puts me quite low, puts me negative thoughts in my head. I feel it in my body, its strong and quite killing. But I need this med, that’s sure.
So how long did you put to recover? In order to have more active life now? Is it possible for me to get out of my head one day? I hope it wlll be sooner, I am getting old… I see the progress in the day, but my evenings are negative still.
Try to make goal and achieve it instead of thinking about the disease
I had an improvement when I was put on an antidepressant and it helped with the anxiety and I was able to get out of my home.
Spend some time in the park. Enjoy nature. Get a pet. Maybe it will help you to stop living in your head all the time…
I just take it day by day. A day at a time. Life is a journey life is a process. You’ll get better
You may need more Zyprexa to cover you in the evenings. I would speak to your Pdoc about it.
i saw your pic and you look lovely, i guess you don’t believe me cos i’m not an appolan ok
it’s hard for us all, we all have hopes and dreams…
you deserve a good guy, i mean that, and you’re still young
be well :*
Oh, thank you my dearest frings 
, this really touches me. The fight is also to feel ok with myself so i believe you 
. The other problem is my inactivity. Its not just a thing to “move” my ass… my symptoms are too painful sometimes, so dont be hard on me. I push myself but i even cant walk sometimes, cause i feel some heavy pain instead of a heart or soul or emotions…
Ginalove, i think that the zyprexa smashes me in the evening in fact, but well see… I am impatient to feel this “something” which i need, cause i feel ill since kid. I never really had a life and i dont want to waste time. The docs doesnt know how to help me more. They say to keep the zyprexa thats all. Ive been in the psychiatrie for ten years so i do now the best i can, thats all… I just wanted a support in order to swallow my wasted years and calm down on the future ones. I am afraid of one vulnerability till the end, but its an anxiety too. I guess i dont need this.
Hugs
Anna you’re the lovely one you’re worth 10 of me.
Yeh this illness is very hard, i say today in a thread ‘we are the tortured souls.’
You want to find happiness and i want to accept my unhappiness 
I hope you find your happiness
I want to say that i hate my life!!! And all of you who say to me that i need to push myself cant understand!!! Go out, move, nanani nanana… you are not in my shoes!!! I am fed up by my paranoia! The meds didnt make disappear this, but without them it was very bad. I feel watched outside, i suffocate by fear!!! I dont want the others to see me like this! I fighted till my twenties. For god sake its normal to get tired of fighting after twentie years you know… none of you isnt sick as kid here… this illness destroyed my life entirely! Even my family told me to kill myself you know??? I heard it from my mom… but i want to live cause i love the life in general, the others… but when i am not paranoid, very often in the evening i am in pain!!! Andrey, you cant imagine my state so dont tell me to push me… i need emotions, not to feel my brain in my head like this. And i am ■■■■■■■ alone in this fight. You were luckier than me.
This is absolutely false. I’ve been on psych meds since I was 7? 8? years old.
Whoa. No need to be so hostile to Nick. He’s not even in this thread.
He wasnt nice to me either. Plus, i am tired to be nice too. You have smthng now in the life led. I even dont have my periods because of the meds. Why the others decided if i should have children or no? Its too much, dont you think???
If you want kids there are fertility meds you can take. I had to take some.