I thought John Stewart was recruiting me for the army because an atomic bomb was about to be dropped on the U.S. by Russia. I thought the trailers for movies on youtube were giving secret message instructions to prepare us for WW3/nuclear Holocaust. I though the movie WallE was shown to me as a child to prepare me to survive in a post nuclear apocalypse wasteland. This was about 5% of all my delusions.
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I was convinced everyone had a demon imaginary friend from childhood which turned into a sexual symbolism as people got older. I thought that cartoon characters and company logos were designed to eliminate everyoneâs demons or else people would become sexual deviants who were sexually attracted to perversion and deformity.
I guess mine isnât too far out after all. I will say, though, that mine doesnât change course for the last year (I have only been psychotic for about 15 months). It built up to me being the scientific Messiah in the first 4 months or so and then it just stopped and has remained unchanged. I donât have any other delusions related or unrelated.
My oddest and probably most grandiose one was that I could control the weather.
i feel for you - i currently have a delusion i hope that involves these -
ear implant for recieving voices -
brain implant for stimulating my nerve pain -
living next door to cia -
being brainwashed and wiped over and over again by former mentioned cia -
on and on the list goesâŚ
i seem to be stuck in this current one big time -
comes back to me every night -
gives me commands, makes me sleep, makes me wake up, reads all words out loud i look at - even before i know what they mean, says shapes and colours of things i look at and says things like âthis is amazing âmy nameââ if i do anything creative or excersize or learn - and puts me down or gives me death threats towards myself or my family if i am not doing any of those three thingsâŚ
on the up side of things - they are extremely helpful if i am doing one of the three aforementioned things and tell me how to improve or do better and it actually works !!
it makes you feel as though something inside of you is VERY WRONGâŚ
I used to think I was a robot a long time ago, it happened when I was sleeping, and for some reason I heard this digital sound in my head, and before that, I had already thought I was a robot, so it just kinda confirmed my delusions, I was really in bad shape mentally, really anxious and nervous
Also, at the moment, I feel like the actors on TV are aware of my presence, sometimes they will see mean things to hurt my feelings, I try to watch cartoons cus itâs a little better, but even then even the voice actors can say things about me, as of now I still believe this is happening, at least they donât tell me to do things, that would be even worse
I remember that when I started becoming more aware of my psychotic symptoms, my delusions were like the ones that you typically hear about. Like believing that people are speaking to you through billboards, that people are planning to do you harm in some form, that youâre being mind-controlled by the government, etc. But as time went by, they started getting more specific and increasingly disturbing and bizarre. My memory isnât really working at the moment and Iâm kind of concerned about whether I should post the delusions I do remember because they may be triggering for some.
@mexxem your delusion(s) is the closest to mine. Believing you have implants in your ears etc. I donât think I am being mind wiped or brainwashed but I do think they can hypnotize me to forget anything which is very similar. I believe, right now, I have shyt tons of knowledge in my brain that they wonât allow me to access. It makes me feel paranoid and extremely vulnerable that my mind and behavior can be controlled. Lately, they just let me do my own thing. I attribute that to the meds. I think of the STAGGERING technology it would require to do this to me and go through all this and then I think âcalm down⌠itâs a delusionâ
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