With me I’ve always found it really difficult to make friends. Im very guarded i don’t let my guard down easily and find it puts people off. It was a miracle i actually met my hubby ive only ever got to know people when ive lived with them for a while like in shared accommodation or hospital or supported living, i met hubby in shared living he has no mh issues, he finds me difficult to live with but loves me and sees how i struggle.
Can anyone relate to people in general finding you difficult to get to know?
I dont have much problems socializing. Just finding real friends because alot of people are fake. I like to hangout with neighbors, go to the pier, bars, restaurants, festivals. When i was on respiridone geodon seroquel and zyprexa i hated that crap because it made me anti social and i had trouble conversating. Now i take just invega once per day not to bad.
Very guarded. I dont have many friends, being in public (work, restaurant etc) usually results in mind reading and conspiracies and all gets to be too much pdq.
I hear ya. I was just thinking something similar.The only time i felt normal and had any normal amount of friends was before I was 10, and here i am in my 50s now.
Its a rough balance. I wish things were different too sometimes but then I start think that I would probably be put on display more and that would lead to things going wrong in a whole other direction. I think at this point I just wanna blend in with the crowd if that makes sense.
Yes i understand
I used to get awful paranoia in supported living
I look back though and at least there was some socialising with it
I get nothing now
Sorry im feeling sad
I’ve been introverted and shy from as far back as I can remember. I have always been one for solitary rather than group activities. My social communication skills are at classical autism level.