I rely a lot on what other people tell me, and also I try and be focused on my own progress.
They tell me I’m doing great, much better than when I was off meds or undiagnosed. I feel better, in a lot of ways, I’m a better person even.
The thing is I also have this issue. I still feel symptoms mostly every day, here and there for about half an hour in the morning usually, and I break concentration in the classes I’m attending. It’s been difficult but manageable, I think I’ll be able to do the full course, all five years of it.
I mark the decision to take that degree as the first step in my recovery, I refused to stay home and be depressed about the illness. I’m exercizing three days a week and I’m returning to the swimming pool and starting a yoga class. This past week and a half I’m not doing much because I strained a tendon in my leg and I feel my moods shifting a lot, I was more stable doing more exercise…
I also feel that breaking free from learned helplessness is making up a lot of my mental time, and that’s less time focusing on symptoms and more time focusing on recovery.
Don’t let the little symptoms bum you out. You’re doing really good.