Hi. It feels nice to be outside but it feels uncomfortable walking on the streets. I feel like I have to carry my composure perfectly and I feel somewhat pressured. I keep telling myself to be me. But those forces keep me from remembering who I am.
I stopped socializing with neighbors my demeanor has become more business like. One thing about isolation is that it feels safe. No margin for error.
I had a knack of getting in trouble running with the wrong crowd as a teenager. I was letting the wrong influences in. I’m 31 now and learned what to stay away from.
What used to anger me I’ve learned not to let it. Life The meter is running and I feel I have to be at My best. It’s not all the time I act this way. I relax when I can. But out in public it’s hard to carry myself relaxed.
Always feel somebody taking brief glances. You can’t catch everything. But what you do miss you wish you would of caught it. That’s just the way I feel about life right now, how do you feel?