Do they come on suddenly or build up? Are they constantly on your mind?
Lately I’ve been getting thoughts I had while psychotic maybe I am again idk. Sometimes I just dont think about it much until it randomly hits me again. Sometimes several times a day. Other days it’s onmy mind in the background all the time.
This world isn’t real. I’m fine until I see people doing normal people things without effort. I see them communicating and relating and I dont get how. Then bam, I conclude it’s just not real. I used to think I’m dead and walking like a zombie . Sometimes I wonder. But it’s more like this was never real at all. Yesterday I kept thinking this and felt fine. Sometimes it stresses me out. I’ve been getting vertigo occasionally for the first time, we besides once a long time ago. I sat in bed last night thinking about it all and I felt like my mind crumbled apart.
Mine delusions are pretty much always there, depending on what situation I’m in. yah yours are just random it sounds like. Yah I don’t get there communication but I watch and try to get it and learn. Our perception of it may not be real though. Our perception of things is the key. People wouldn’t know if just slow until told . I need to be told stuff if not then its not my problem. I try to read peoples eyes though but its just misleading. Our perceptions don’t always tell the truth about walking and mind crumbling but its scary and holds our thought and takes us a little farther out on it then we want. Hope this helps…Are you on meds?
yea its very much a like what you describet, or strong and intensive, and some times behind the had, building slowly and stay long
Honestly, I’ve being perceiving the world as pretty unreal nearly constantly for 20 years.
I’m on seroquel 500mg. I have no real drive to interact with people unless I just have to. And sometimes I do automatically but it feels incredibly shallow and fake. I have scripts for almost every interaction I do except with my girlfriend.
I wish I could pinpoint exactly what’s causing this. Or prove it to be true. Something.
@Moon
This sounds exactly the same for me. Some days it’s more pressing than others. I also thought others weren’t real. I also thought I was dead.
I’m experiencing mild dual reality every day where I exists in two states. The dream state seems to be in more control now and can interact with it subconsciously.
Have you talked to a therapist about it? What did they say?
The therapist would remind me who is real and that I can trust him. He would point to evidence that I wasn’t dead.
It happens less often now since my Latuda was raised to 120mg.
Nowadays I barely ever think about my delusional thoughts, maybe somedays they’ll pop up once or twice briefly. But I don’t really believe them either and can write them off as delusions. That’s on medication.
Off medication when I’m not in an episode I pretty much spend any of my free time daydreaming about all my delusional thoughts. And when I’m in an episode, I become absolutely obsessed and they’re all I can focus on, I remember being in classes and just furiously writing down delusional belief after belief and not paying attention at all. It really made my grades suffer. I wouldn’t study either because of my fixation on my delusions. They would really be all consuming.
In conclusion meds are good.
I relate so hard! My meds are most likely letting me not be consumed by these thoughts now. I’m glad you said that
Right now I am having one of those day that I am psychotic. I am happier though but I know it can’t
last. All good things must come to an end. Usually for me it’s when I’ve been awake for a while that
my delusions show up. After I sleep and wake up the next day everything is back to this old sad, sad
lonely life again.
Ugh I can relate. Sometimes the inconsistency is worse
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