I just can’t belive i have it. Feels like it can’t be true. Not for me. And it’s so frustrating. I don’t know what to belive. My life feels so empty and without any meaning. What if it’s wrong diagnosis. But at the same time no matter which diagnosis i would get, I still could not belive i have any diagnosis. I feel like there is no diagnosis, just reasons. If that makes any sense?
How do you know you have your diagnosis?
Do you have any positive symptoms like hearing voices, paranoid thoughts, delusions etc?
For me it was a relief. I was aware in the back of my mind that the things I was experiencing and believing were a bit suspect. When the pdoc game me ap’s I took them and felt better. That was enough for me to believe the delusions were delusions.
Welcome to the forum. 
I did have positive symptoms as my doctor said. For example feeling immortal. But I do think that is over now. I don’t think of that as much as before. It’s like there’s a lid on that whole thought. And it feels anyway unrealistic that i am sick only of a thought(s). I think everything a doctor thinks of as a symptom has a reason. A reason for why its a “symptom”
Well I heard voices in my head. So I have psychotic disorder. I did not want them in there when they were in there eventually
If your doctor diagnosed you with sz and you did not lie about your symptoms then you have schizophrenia, yeah
If he starts you on a medication then you need to continue taking it as stopping causes your positive symptoms to return and even worse. Also if he needlessly gave medication then also stopping it abruptly causes positive symptoms to appear even if not have one before as our body get dependant on medication pretty quickly. I suggest you to find other opinions from different doctors if you are not sure if have now positive symptoms or not.
I have complained to the system but got rejected twice. Keeping up with the 3 now …
So positive symptoms will come regardless if you have not been diagnosed with the medicine? In that case, I have never been able to prove that I can do without medication if there are any positive symptoms. or do I misunderstand?
Sorry if it’s bad english
I also couldn’t believe my diagnosis and told the pdr to stop my meds. For a year I was completely lost and crazy delusional, paranoid and was hallucinating, I went to Germany thinking I am the next Hitler, it all ended with a suicide attempt that landed me in the emergency to clean my liver from poisoning then to mental hospital.
Pdr said not accepting the illness and meds is part of the illness, schizophrenia.
I get doubts about my sza a lot too. As @Aziz said, it’s part of the illness. It’s called anosognosia (lack of insight). Many a time I thought I was lying about my symptoms but why would I? There’d be no benefit. I’m terrified I’m a fake and a liar. But it’s part of sz/sza.
It feels exactly the same. That I’m someone who’s lying and just making up. But I have no intention of doing so. It was a little calming that someone else and felt that way. And that I may not be a liar.
I defo don’t feel like a liar about this disease cos it was ■■■■■■■ hell on earth if that is where I was!!
I question whether I have schizophrenia too. But I think back to how I was in 2008 when I was unmedicated, I must have it. Also a couple of years ago when I was on Risperdal, I started hearing a voice again. My pdoc upped the dosage of the Risperidone and the voice went away. While on Zyprexa I would hear angels sing when I was trying to go to sleep. I got up and went in the livingroom and they went away. I thought maybe the neighbor was playing a radio.
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