Since I was a little girl I have always known I’m different. Through the years I started to realize that I had symptoms of mental illness. One day all those symptoms became unbearable because of their intensity. It was then when I started to visit a psychiatrist. I looked for schizophrenia on Google and I realized I was having all the symptoms described on there. Then I was hospitalized and during the hospitalization the psychiatrist told me my diagnosis: Paranoid schizophrenia.
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In hindsight, I sorta knew i was schizophrenic all along. I think its because i wasnt responding to treatment as an EUPD - and the symptoms i was having didnt fit.
Soon as i found out, with my box of risperadone to wean onto, i just sat and cried for
a couple of hours. I thought my life was over - but it was a relief to know why i wasnt like everyone else.
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I remember when I was in the hospital. I was pretty chill. I skipped my group meetings. Because I had social phobia. I think they allowed me to but I’m not sure. My appetite got better because of the medicine. So I enjoyed that. I was also able to drink more because of the medicine, so I was dehydrated. Somehow the medicine made me chemically better in my brain so I could eat and drink more.
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I suspected I had sz at the age of 23 in nursing school when the whole world suddenly changed into surreality overnight.
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My previous diagnosis was OCD, so when I started having delusions I went there for help and tried to see if they understood my obsessions and they told me I was psychotic and that they couldn’t help me. Then I went to another OCD forum and they told me I had schizophrenia so I came here to ask about it.
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Hi, Katherine
the same here, hope things improve over time.
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I was in the 3rd or 4th week of my second involuntary hospitalization, this oddly dressed guy was talking about how he had sz and he was the only person there who made any sense, all the things he was saying I could relate to, up to that point I had no clue why I was even in the mental hospital.
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I knew since child that something was wrong in my mind, but I never thought it was sz. My first diagnosis was schizotypal pd with borderline features, later OCD and anxiety.
I had my first crisis because I had somatic and reference delusions(the voices told me that I was dying because my family was stealing organs from me), I was hospitalized and the doctor told me my new diagnosis.
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I knew something was wrong when I started hearing voices, but it took me years to navigate the system and get the help I needed
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I was talking to a friend of mine about how my house was haunted by demons who kept tormenting me at night and she was like “I just read in psychology class about something called schizophrenia, and no offense, but it sounds just like you.” She helped me get checked into a hospital.
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Hi i was 20 years old when i got schizophrenia, i am now 45 and doing ok, tough sometimes all them wasted years!
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I knew I was crackers to some degree, but had no idea i was schizophrenic until my doctors wrote it on my file.
That’s correct. The doctors never told me I had schizophrenia…not one of them…I found out by reading my Hospital file.
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I still don’t know for certain, but I began to suspect schizophrenia when I started hearing voices regularly and then those voices evolved to having a telepathic connection to them. I researched schizophrenia and realized that I have most of the symptoms. A doctor has yet to give me a formal diagnosis but I fear it’s only a matter of time. Or, maybe I have bipolar disorder with psychotic features, or something on the schizophrenia spectrum. Whatever it is, I wish I could get a clear diagnosis and that way I’d have a better understand of what’s wrong with me. It’s really isolating.
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The treatment for most psychotic disorders are the same. As long as your meds are working a diagnosis is just a label.
If they don’t work keep trying to find something better. I would like to feel better but I am afraid to experiment with new meds because I am stable and I have been very unstable. So it’s a double edged sword.
It’s a crap shoot really.
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It’s truly scary to me that AI is going to be in everything,
including schizophrenia. If progress is being stalled or slow
I hope it’s for ethical reasons.
But my beginning was that I didn’t have it.
It took years.
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Hi Daze hope younare doing fine, though could I ask if you regard yourself as a TI being I have read some of your other posts, and know you get suspended from time to time.
I realised because of this forum.
I thought it was real despite symptoms and diagnosis.
On this forum I thought it strange that others had similar symptoms so after over twenty years of denial I accepted I have schizophrenia.
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I had some near psychotic break when I was 19.Two doctors told me to take Prolixine and Prozac. At that time didn’t realize that it was sz, until it hit me six years later in hospital.
Then I had moment in hospital that after two weeks started to get along with folks there.
One is still my friend and I decided at least not to be such a problem for my family.
I recovered quickly, but voices never went away.
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I’m not so sure I’m schizophrenic. Everywhere I go people are talking bad about me and saying that they are watching me and the tv is commenting on my thoughts.
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Those are symptoms you are talking about.
What did doctors said to you?
Are you taking care about your self?
How’s your eating and sleeping?