What was the grounding point for you to realize you had schizophrenia?
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I started hearing voices like a baby cry, my mother’s voice calling me and eventually my friends. I was 18. It got worse when I was drunk with my friends.
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It hit me the last time I went to check in to a mental hospital. I had one of my lucid windows of time where I realized something wasn’t right with me. I had struggled with bipolar for years and it occurred to me that the episodes were still coming despite medications, and the psychosis was getting so much worse Everytime. I remember breaking down crying to the person interviewing me at the intake. I told her briefly about my symptoms before falling into it again. Then I tried to get out, did successfully for a minute to talk to my husband with our children in the waiting room. I thought I’d be able to go home and that I was going to be fine after all. It was so hard on my husband and 3yr old. Next thing I remember I was back in, tried to barge in on the staff discussing me and got locked in a room. Don’t really remember transitioning from there to where I was transported except that I noted the garden we walked through to get there ( I had remembered smelling flowers the last time I went there by ambulance.) And then getting in trouble for lighting up in a nonsmoking ward. ( I don’t know why I lied to them about smoking, I was paranoid.) I remember getting to the right place but then it gets kind of choppy. I couldn’t talk for at least 24hrs and thought I could talk telepathically. I thought dreams were awake time. I spiralled off into so many directions I can’t list them all, layer upon layer of conspiracy theories, misinterpreted surroundings like thinking I had caused the burn victim night nurses scars. She nearly cried when I apologized. I ended up getting transferred to a state hospital because I had no insurance and was sooo bad. I mean in terms of being deep in psychosis, positive negative and cognitive issues all at once. I’ve always wondered how I can remember so much objectively when I come out of it. I mean even as I’m still struggling with it I start peicing it together. So many memories I wish I could share. I’m just relieved to be on this site now with people who understand, ive been so lonely for that.
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It’s good you recovered. Good for you. I cant wait until I come up from my delusions.
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When I am feeling anxious and panicky but no one is after me.
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the authoritarians told me.
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It took me 7 years to figure it out. All the signs pointed to yes. When a little girl came to talk to me and entered the room through a wall and a chair I figured out I hallucinated. That was the big barrier.
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I realized it when I was in the mental hospital when I was 19 years old.
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It took me 0.75 of the year to realise, when I was told by doctors.
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When i realized how other people see the world
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i was initially diagnosed with bipolar with psychotic features. the idea of schizophrenia didn’t really enter my thoughts though cause i wasn’t that familiar with it. one day i read on wikipedia what schizoaffective was, and both me and my dad agreed it sounded like me. i probably wouldnt say that was the point though, it was a long process where i’m not sure i first had it pin pointed, of me trying to pinpoint if i was BPolar with psychosis or if i had psychosis apart from mania too. i’m kinda normal most of the time apart from anxiety, so i didn’t have a lot of episodes to go by. but it’s clear now looking back that i’m schizoaffective.
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I started hallucinating voices in my head. That was pretty concrete evidence for me. For some reason I didn’t tell my psychiatrist about it until it had been going on for like 6 months.
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When I told the voices to go away and they wouldn’t
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It’s different for everyone so far as I can tell. Staying away from drugs and drink is very important from what I’ve seen. It usually takes me months to come out of psychosis once it sets in. I’m very careful to jump on loss of sleep, super important to controlling positive symptoms for me. I need to talk to my doctor about my sleep meds now actually, they’re starting to not work. I hope you can come out of it too. 
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I’m still not sure I’m sz. I can see points for and against me being sz. There have been times when I thought I was sz after initial diagnosis. The first time was 2015 after being diagnosed in 2014.
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When I started getting better on AP’s in hospital I asked the doctors what was wrong with me and they told me I was Schizophrenic. I didn’t really know what it was back then
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I didn’t realise it until the doctor told me that’s what I had, and sent me to Psychoeducation.
I thought maybe I had autism or DID, so it caught me by surprise
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Same. I’m on the fence. I see points for and against it.
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I woke up in a bad dream that was what sz was like when I first got it…it was very distressing
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Hi, Same here…
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