So ■■■■■■■ down I wanna die in my sleep or sleep all day and not get up. Hubby forces me to get out of bed with his myriad needs and it irritates me. Meals, drinks, business, shopping etc etc
I wish I had only myself to look after. Then I could ■■■■■■■ sleep all ■■■■■■■ day and blast my music and buzz my head and scream.
Going on like this I will most likely definitely kill my husband with my thoughts and therefore I’m so trapped. I can’t breathe. I’m suffocating.
You need to take your new med regiment as directed and if things don’t improve, call your pdoc for further adjustment @Hadeda.
Hey - have you ever sat down and talked to your Hubby about this. Let him know you both are suffering. He isn’t able. And your disability makes it difficult / extremely to be a caretaker.
He needs to know your suffering too.
Are bottling all this up to from Hubby?
Hey @Hadeda . Sorry that you are suffering. Maybe give your new med adjustment a little more time.
I’m honestly not sure what you should do about your husband. Maybe you should do like @Kxev suggested and have a talk with your husband. Maybe let him know that all these activities are putting a strain on you that you can’t deal with at the current time.
Best of luck
What I cannot understand is why now after ten years of marriage? Things are the same as always and I could cope most times and beginning of last year my antidepressant was so good that I didn’t have depression for a whole year… why has it stopped now? Why does my ■■■■■■■ sza have to jeopardise my marriage now??? I sometimes wish I had sz instead of sza because then I wouldn’t have this ■■■■■■■ debilitating depression on top of the psychosis. Why can’t I just damn cope???
so sorry you’re suffering so much…maybe your meds will kick in and you will feel better…sorry.
Things change, people change.
Can you talk to your husband about him giving you some time without needing to tend to his needs?
Have you considered a home aide for him to relieve you once in a while?
Let me put it differently.
You NEED to have a talk with him about how caring for him is too hard right now, and that you need time to yourself.
It’s not selfish, if that’s what you’re worried about. You can’t give him the live he needs if you’re too stressed to even want to be alive.
It’s not healthy for him to rely solely on you either.
You don’t reply when I or others say these things. Can you please somehow acknowledge this?
@Pikasaur I’m sorry I haven’t acknowledged your guys posts. I’ve read them and plan to discuss them with hubby and my pdoc and maybe have a session with hubby and his therapist. I’m trying to think about the best time to because I’m not even sure why I’m unhappy. I need to speak to a therapist first myself.
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