So, I was thinking about this the other day and thought maybe some of you could relate. We’re diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type and our psychosis is basically in remission (unless triggered) and our moods are somewhat stable. Sometimes I wonder if we really are schizophrenic. But… then I think back to when we were at our worst and… wow. The delusions, hallucinations, and the seriously bipolar behavior.
Once I think off all that, I have to laugh that I doubt at all.
Can anyone else relate?
Who is ‘we’? Are you referring to yourself in plural?
I have dissociative identity disorder, so I’m only one of several people in this brain
Oh cool. Nice to see another system around
“ddnos” I was recently diagnosed but I was always diagnosed sza but I think I only have seasonal depression and drug induced psychosis but I think sza was a mistake diagnosis it was hard to explain myself and my doc barely listened. But ddnos makes sense cuz I developed many different identities or personalities. Psychosis because drugs helped until I had a trip from hell with hallucinogens and it all backfired and it created psychosis but before that I had multiple personalities fantasy worlds of identity and my original self suffered. Until I tried to build up my self into reality more but im not sure if it was true psychosis till I took drugs and had a bad experience
Oof, I’m sorry to hear that you had that experience
I often talk about my “alter” on this forum though I’ve never been diagnosed with DID. My pdoc says there’s no medicine for it. I have one I focus on. I was a weak and sensitive child and couldn’t cope with feelings so I created alters. I still can’t deal with reality though what I know instead is much worse. Go figure. I often think some of them might very well be spirits other than me.
You weren’t weak. You were strong because you coped with mechanisms that were inherently risky. That makes you daring. And you went through that. So you’re strong. And I think you always had been even if you picked up mechanisms of strength more and you go and develop and cope better.
Well I could relate a lot. I was always very sensitive. My first trauma was my birth. The world seemed scary for me. I’ve found medicines that work. Some are used in schizophrenia too like abilify really helps me integrate my being so does naltrexone and klonopin is a good benzo for me. I mean it’s different for everyone but the meds for dissociative personality disorder are similar to schizophrenia meds too. But naltrexone is the kicker to me I also experienced a derealization and depersonalization because I would pretend I was every person I met. Try to envision myself in their body. I did this every person I met for s year. Then I had a bad shrooms/abilify/alcohol/caffeine trip. And I got these symptoms it was like hppd but naltrexone saved from me it and abilify helps too
Neitzsche what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger !
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