Highschool is hard when you are ill everyone already hates me and its not me just being anxious and paranoid its real everyone throws hate at me they say how I’m a huge whore who will do anything with anyone, when in reality I’ve never done anything I’ve barley kissed a boy. The whole reason I switched schools mid year was to avoid drama start fresh because I barely even talk with anyone right now the only people I have in my life is this site, at least you guys don’t judge me say I’m crazy or stupid because I believe certain things that aren’t “normal” I miss feeling ‘normal’ well seeming normal I wish I never realized that I was different and that theres barley anyone like me especially in this tiny state. I’ve got two and a half years left of high school no matter how hard it is I can’t quit I’m set on going to art school and doing something with my life not just sitting in this small state wishing I did something with my talents. Its just so damn hard to get through this rough point because its mostly the anxiety of why school is so hard I can handle the voices and ‘monsters’ thats what I call my hallucinations, but hey my mom finally realized that I may actually need medication and that this is real she said she’s always known se just didn’t want to admit that all her kids have ‘flaws’ my oldest brother has aspurgers her other son is a drug addict and her baby girl is schizophrenic but at least she will admit it and is open to medication now but I’m scared of medications can I get addicted to some?
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