I’ve struggled with anxiety my whole life and depression from the age 12 onwards and it seriously affected my time at school. Especially in secondary school I hardly went at all as I was so ill I only managed to attend some of it - most of first year, not much of second year and practically none of third year. I left at the end of third year as I physically had to it was killing me. So I don’t have any qualifications but am 1000x happier and healthier! I’m just wondering if anyone else on here struggled with school and how they felt about it? My psychologist asks me why I hated school so much and couldn’t go and I honestly have no idea I just couldn’t.
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I had the same issue - I finished middle and high school partly in the hospital and at home. I couldn’t take it my delusions, anxiety everything was so much worse then. I am better isolated when I have control over my surroundings. I was able to complete online and self study classes and have even completed a doctorate program - but not in traditional settings.
For me groups of people I get overwhelmed. Everything is garbled like they are speaking alien. Well not at first - at first they are all talking about me and they become louder than the voices in my head, then they become garbled and it is just to overpowering. I want to do two things - scream at everyone or hide.
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I did well in elementary, middle and high school. I did well completing my first associates degree in college. Mostly A’s, some B’s.
I went to work for several years and my mental health got considerably worst and my cognitive abilities have suffered. I went back to school to complete a Bachelor’s degree after getting laid off. I was able to complete the degree, but was getting mostly B’s and C’s by the end. I’m struggling to find a job related to my education, so I’m starting to feel like it was a waste of time. Hopefully I’m wrong.
Sorry you are having trouble finding a job. I hope it gets better. I only did education to feel semi-normal not to find employment. There is no way I can work with my issues. Too many people I just couldn’t do it. For those with sz that can be around people whether on meds or not, finding employment can be hard. Maybe as internet progresses more jobs will come available as a work from home type and that will help so many disabled who have the skills to work but can’t do the normie workplace.
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Ran away at third grade…skipped most of 9th grade. Lucky we moved i got an a overall…tried 10th grade…got my ged 10th grade summer…its not that i wasnt good at the work i just detested it…went to a special school for green electricity…passed all the tests i made it in for…but working plus school was alot…
That’s great for you! What website did you do your online studies on?
I can relate to the garbled talking, my mind was always so overwhelmed I could never understand what anyone was saying in a school environment. And as soon as I got home I lay down on my sofa and hid under a blanket that was my safe place.
I’m struggling to find a job too, I’m currently volunteering somewhere but only once a week. I can’t be trusted with a full time job and there’s not many part time jobs I can qualify for having absolutely no qualifications… Sending you employment vibes!!! 
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my safe place was hiding in the shower - like they’d never find me there…
I don’t remember all of them. My first was home studies for bachelor in business - it was a bird - I’ll ask my mom this evening - she kept track of it all. Online were mostly just various fill in classes I was interested in. I did my doctorate from a school out of texas that mailed you everything. There are a lot more homeschool/online schools now than there were then and most all are accepted nationally.
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Well, I think, more like, the scientific research says that most of the time, school performance is directly related to socioeconomic factors like housing, income, healthcare, facilities you learn in.
I went to private school pre-kindergarten through 12th grade, and now I am starting a Psy D, graduated top of my department in undergrad two months ago.
Most people from my high school are also doing well, no wonder, they had money pumped in their “critical periods” and “stages of development”, basically they were given resources to raise them right, and now they graduated college and have jobs.
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You are right it’s really difficult. I also had depression, paranoia and anxiety through middle school n high school but I was doing so well. I didn’t even know I was ill then it’s just now that I have an insight into the disease that I realized I had a lot of symptoms back then. I was diagnosed 4 years ago when I was studying medicine in collage that’s when things got worse. My parents were devastated when I had to change my course cause I had 1 year left to finish. It bothered me at first I felt like screaming all the time but I got over it. I accept it as my destiny. I hope things work out for you, I wish you well
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If anyone’s interested in taking free online courses, here is a list of websites that offer high quality free online courses, some from Ivy League universities.
I especially recommend www.Coursera.org. I’d like to say that I’m currently taking courses, but have been lazy and not studying despite being signed up for classes. 
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That’s exactly how I was! If I believed in myself and actually had the motivation to do the work it would’ve been good! But I just didn’t see the point in it so didn’t even try
Hope you’re doing better now, I’m glad you managed to get over it. I totally believe in fate and that everything happens for a reason! Thank you so much for the kind words 
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These look great! Thanks so much for posting this, I’ll definitely consider taking a course 
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I had problems in college. I was fine the first two years then I got sick. And I went downhill from there. I never finished school. I thought alien spaceships were landing inside the school.
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