when I switched to a new school it was terrible for me I think it is the reason my psychosis started I only had a couple friends but really my only real friend was the drugs I would use everyday to get me through the school day, the only thing is that was probably making my days there worse because I would hear voices everyday that I got high before school, I would hear everyone talking about me and they would say stuff that I never even really thought about so it seemed so real, the longer I went to school the more and the harder drugs I got into because it was so bad I would be shaking and twitching everyday when I went to school,
I just watched this video about this kid who killed himself because of bullying but I was never bullied but I probably would have killed myself if I had stayed when the voices got worse and I started hearing them 24/7 instead of switching to online school like I did because I eventually realized that the voices I heard at home weren’t real because it was the same couple voices but I had been hearing stuff at school before the full onset of my symptoms so I always thought it was actual people talking about me everywhere I go, I really don’t know what I am going to do when its time for me to go to college or something I just am really bad in situations and I am not that good at communicating with people and I am kinda messed up from all the stories I hear about people killing themselves because of their experience in school and than I am also afraid of getting shot at school I think I am just gonna try to finish my online school work and than I don’t know what I am gonna do once I finish