Was there that special someone, that even today you can’t forget them?
I had one, she started dating a guy in grade 7 and married him 
, oddly they bought a house 3 doors down from me, we remained friends and years later they divorced, I moved her out of the house and into her new apartment, then sz hit again and I went into a bad depression and pushed her away, years later still kicking my ass. She is happy and married again
Not for me no. I didn’t really find myself attracted to anyone until I left.
Had a few people try to engage me, and I even tried just the once, but it didn’t go anywhere.
Was a bit of a shame.
I was an outcast at high school. Not a fan of forcing education on people.
I had plenty of high school lust.
But love? Not so much.
There was one of the varsity cheerleaders when I was in 11th grade who I had a big crush on. She was just so cute. Of course there was no way I could talk to her.
She was very popular and cute and I was not popular or good looking.
It’s weird when you like someone so much and you know if you showed it you would probably be the laughing stock of the school. So I went to prostitutes and escort services and seedy massage parlors instead.
There’s this man I was infatuated with over ten years now.
I don’t know if I’m still infatuated, maybe.
But for me infatuation feels horrible, I lose touch with myself, kind of.
So I had to let him go, in every way.
Create an emotional distance or emotional boundaries, in particular, because if I did not, and I saw him, even just the thought of that would be too stressful.
But emotional distance, emotional boundaries, does not equate to dislike and fortunately I feel it is not that bad that I cannot even talk to him. Although it may reach that point idk. I have a feeling it just has lol cos I feel he might be reading this forum 
,… Paranoia…
I was unattractive and went to four different high schools, a new one each year. I didn’t have a single high school relationship.
Yes, I had romantic feelings for a classmate. She was beautiful . I never dared to express my feelings
I had feelings for a classmate but they were shallow and short lived. She seemed to like me too but I stepped back. She’s been married for a few years now and has a baby. We are not in touch anymore and I rarely think of her.
I was in a long-distance relationship my senior year of high school. We eventually broke up, but she was “the one”. She’s happily married now, but I still think about her from time to time.
I had a crush on a few different girls, but I was too shy to express my feelings. A lot of women liked me. They definitely hinted.
Still when I go back to uni this year, I’ll be more open with women.
I had a crush on one girl in particular. I think she liked me too, but I was very shy and introvert, and afraid to engage her. Scared of the unknown. I had some chances to make a move, but I let them pass. I think she got together with someone else and it broke my heart. I was just sad and not angry. It was my own fault that I didn’t try to get to know her.
Ahh yes, the gay experience. I had a super mega best friend in high school. We called each other soul mates and slept in the same bed. Some time after college, I came out. She stopped talking to me shortly after. Guess she wasn’t thinking of things like I had been.
I had urges, with one friend in particular, but when and where I was brought up it wasn’t really acceptable. I didn’t fully understand my own feelings until I was about 17. Stopped attending high school when I was about 14, as I had completely given up on it.
Sorry things didn’t continue with your best friend. I know how that feels to lose someone you’d let that close to you for no good reason.
This has been something I struggle with pretty badly. I am glad however that you have managed to build some relationships now though - I bet you wouldn’t look back knowing what you do now?!?!?
Nah, I’m pretty happy with where I ended up 
Is this what a lot of gay people experience (Or used too?)?
I have no one to compare it too
That’s really sad. I had my daughter with my high school boyfriend, but we were very different and I couldn’t stay with him. He was probably the opposite of me. Outgoing and always with friends, but had a drug problem. I’ve always been afraid to talk to men I’m attracted to, since then and haven’t been lucky in love.
Maybe not everyone, but yeah. A lot of kids didn’tget heterosexual crushes in high school, but really valued their same-gender best friends and didn’t put two and two together until much later.
I had a big crush on the most popular girl in high school.
She seemed kind of down to earth.
I never really talked with her.
Man was she pretty.
Two for me. There was my first girlfriend. We started going out at the end of 8th grade and went out until I was early 16. I remember going to see her reherse as Annie in that play early on. She and her friends stole cigarettes from stores and I became a true smoker. We would walk alot across town and hangout downtown. Older people said what we had was rare. We were a couple. We got into ska and the band Sublime it was 1997. We went to shows at a local rock club mainly ska bands. Saw The Mighty Mighty Bosstones with her dad, they signed my shirt. Got into smoking pot, always dime bags. We went to the movies. Snuck out at night to meet at a playground and drink whiskey and smoke pot. We put together a band for the talent show covering Blink 182 and the Violent Femmes, she learned the bass for it and played a pink one. I used to meet her and her friends after school at another playground they were characters. Went kayaking together three times. Kayaking journeys. She vacationed with us in Maine. It was rare at that age to be a couple like that. She got into drugs after we broke up and got a job screening customers at a brothel. She went to rehab sophmore year. She got married in her early 20’s and now has a beautiful family. She’s doing well.
My next serious girlfriend I met when I was 17. My friend introduced me to her downtown and we invited her to drink 40’s with us in this empty tomb in the cemetery. I hooked up with her at the first of what we called a pit party. A fire and a case of beer at this sand pit by the railroad tracks. It was romantic. We ended up wandering off into the woods and sat and talked all night and we kissed. Then we drove to the beach and hugged with the most amazing sunrise behind us. I ended up leaving her for my then girlfriend and hurt her alot there. Then my then girlfriend broke up with me and I went back to her. We became a couple. I had been very depressed since that last girlfriend and I had broken up. Been in a pot haze for a year. I came out of that and fell head over heals in love. We would hangout downtown at the park on the stage at night. There was this snoopy’s dog house, a prop for a play, and we’d sit and gaze into each others eyes for hours and talk. I drove a blue mini van back then. We ended up with mutual friends who we partied with but at first it was just her and I spending lots of time alone. I dropped out of high school when I was 16 and she was an honor student. I got a job at a coffee shop with all our friends. I worked mainly days and they worked nights. Night shifts were alot of fun. We began playing music together, me on drums and her on guitar and vocals. We started a band together called Andy. We had about 32 songs and recorded on cassette in my basement. We played shows at a local community center. We hosted pit parties at the sandpit and drank in my basement with friends. She did a semester in Russia in her sophomore year and I was working at a thrift store. I painted a pastel picture of her eye and got into meditation. When she came back we twice experimented with LSD with our friends. Something I had done before we met. We went out for a over a year and a half and eventually broke up when she fell for one of our friends, our lead guitarist Joe. That broke my heart. We had a threesome with him and she ended up breaking up with me and going out with him. I went completely numb when she broke up with me. I remember sitting there in a chair in my living room with a blanket over me playing perfect dark and feeling completely numb. I didn’t know how I was going to live without her anymore. We remained good friends though. She went to college where I visited her a few times. We still hungout and had mutual friends. She started a band and put out a few albums, went on a minor eurpean tour with a local band and now she works as a nurse and is married to a guy she met in her 20’s. I couldn’t meet anyone after this and became reclusive. The other relationships weren’t love. I ended up at a farm community, a therapuetic farm and met women there and had three relationships but it wasn’t really that kind of love. I still think a lot about my high school relationships now. It was a rare thing I suppose.
I was never in the business of relationships, in particular because I am impotent and also because
I have trouble functioning.