It’s been a rough time since I did not show up here. Due to the side effects of the medications, I have been trying several times to stop them. I am taking Ziprasidone and Clonazepam and have been taking Sertraline for a while.
This year I had several side effects such as: frequent urinary incontinence, sexual dysfunction, muscle stiffness, frequent palpitations, vision problems, hearing problems such as hyperacusis, stomach problems, drowsiness all the time (as now).
My anxiety has increased a lot and I almost do not leave the house.
I do not know if I continue to take sertraline, it seems that it has increased the voices and the songs inside my mind in the almost two months I have taken it, and I have had strange images inside my mind. Should I continue to take it? I was taking 50 mg in the morning and 50 mg in the evening, after a month began to give me drowsiness (like almost all the medications I used).
The voices and the songs within my mind continue to accompany me as always, and on many occasions I have had as that “attacks of voices or songs”.
I started wanting to stop taking my medications after so many side effects and after seeing anti-psychiatry contents, for example Peter Breggin.
I began to question psychiatry and the concept of mental illness, doubting psychiatry and questioning its earliest and most recent history (electroshocks, forced hospitalizations, supposed links between psychiatrists and pharmaceutical industries, for example).
So, I started to no longer accept having to take medicine the rest of my life and having to stay with these side effects, I was completely disheartened and apathetic towards life and future projects. Life began to be worthless to me.
But I found some comfort recently in studying deist philosophy at home and listening to music I like, reading books like Thomas Paine and Voltaire.
And today I started a distance learning Programming Logic course, but I feel anxious about it. My benefit (called social security in US, I think) is in the last month and I do not know if I will continue to receive it.
I am very sad about my family problems today and with no future prospects.
Please help me.