Whoa, whoa, whoa. Did they do some sort of audit on you or something?
A Twitter responder to a tweet of mine uses the term functioning-fluid . It’s only in the last 3 years that I’ve had what can be called good treatment . I’m grateful for it , but also very aware that it can’t erase the damage done by years of incompetent treatment.
There are days when it really gets to me . I could easily have gone over to the dark side and joined those I will not mention. I prefer instead to try and help others do better than I’ve done.
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Yeah, that can be an issue!
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I have a review coming up and I feel at risk because I have not been hospitalized for 4 years now. When my doctor asks me how I am doing, I always say good because I don’t want my medication increased. Even though I am paranoid alot.
I originally had temporary disability through my work. It just didn’t get extended into long term disability.
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I also worry that I’ll get kicked off disability because I don’t have delusions just hear voices. But I’ll deal with it if it happens. In my case it just means that I move from social security disability to unemployment benefits. I’ll be fine either way.
If I got kicked off disability it would be hell, at first, when the med’s were leaving my system. I’d have to get off the med’s because the only kind of work I can do is outside work, and the med’s mess up your body temperature regulation mechanisms. I would be eating out of trash cans for a while. Oh yeah, I have food stamps. When I got off my med’s it would be anybody’s guess as to how I would be. When I got off my med’s in the past I experienced intense anger. I probably would again. I keep reading things in people’s faces that probably aren’t there. I will think a look from somebody means that they are going to put me on the street, or that they’re going to have the police arrest me. I think people’s facial expressions on tv are about me and my situation. There is a very good chance I would get physically sick on the street. Maybe, once I got past the initial trauma I’d be okay, but I doubt it. I never have been okay in the past.
I’m also having back trouble, which would make it almost impossible to work.
I’m worried about losing SSI since I only have negative symptoms now.
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I got a 3 year review. I blame my doctor (saying I got bipolar and ■■■■), possibly my mom (saying I got better on Vraylar), and myself (not advocating, and not describing myself well enough in terms of disability and limitations). I just can’t think straight. They’re acting like Nazis now. It’s ridiculous. There’s no money either so I don’t know how long this all will last. I should have got a 5 year review. It’s ■■■■■■■■. Next stop is a lawyer.
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You gotta be careful because these backstabbing doctors don’t care about your life. My current doctor probably did this to me – 3 year review. He said I could work if I could do CS50 online (never finished). Ya, right you ■■■■■■■ Just because I tried something 1 time and failed, doesn’t mean I can work. Give me a break. I got psychological damage from ■■■■■■■ like you!
I’m switching doctors. He’s a 1/5 star doctor, but it’s free and I got Vraylar so whatever.
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Depends on the profession. My damaged back ended my career as a chef, but it’s not a hindrance to being an insurance broker.
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I’m probably going to start working again very soon and I’m nervous but I’m also looking forward to the challenge. If I can prove to myself I can stick with a job for a solid year, at least, for once, I’ll see myself as ready to come off disability.
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It all feels like a catch-22 situation. I don’t know if I’ll qualify for disability but other people have suggested that I will. I don’t feel ill yet I only need to open my mouth and deny the existence of other people to sound mad as a hatter, but I have to choose to do it, which indicates cunning and a suspicious degree of insight.
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I’m too dysfunctional to have a professional career. About the only work I’m suited for is digging ditches, which is precluded by my back trouble. I get paid to clean the bathrooms at the clubhouse. It only takes about twenty minutes, but sometimes my back hurts pretty bad just from that. Maybe if I lived on the street and lost weight my back would get better. I might could be some kind of a night janitor, but my back is the problem with that.
My sister is a laborer in the construction union. Makes 40 dollars an hour + benefits. 25 years to retire.
I couldn’t even do that. She’s tough. I personally think she’ll have to do some other work in some time because it’s really a male job. But she loves it. She wants to be a nurse but doubt that will happen. She’s also an alcoholic…
I saw Costco paying $16.50 for warehouse work. I would do that. Probably better than Amazon. It just all depends. I’m better now than 10 years ago but I still got my disability. I don’t need to prove anything to anybody. Plus, I got other things going on besides schizoaffective disorder that I talk about. Maybe when my 3 year review is up in 2 years, I’ll do something else. Maybe the government will be broke or bankrupt by then. I don’t know. I got some options.
After a little over seven years on SSDI I started getting a review last year then recently I had to complete a functional assessment form. I was honest and am not gonna lie just to keep getting a monthly check. I’ve had access to great meds, pdoc, and therapist so I believe I’ve improved considerably in that time. If I get recertified will use that time to continue to improve myself.
I’ve already accepted that there is a strong likelihood I’ll be done with benefits but my pdoc or therapist never said I could go back to work even after me asking the pdoc every time I see him to which he never gives me a straight answer. I believe he truly cares so maybe he doesn’t want me to go south again.
I won’t be working a glamorous accounting job but maybe something relatively simple like janitorial work.
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