Overwhelmed

[Hadeda]

I’ve upped my dose of olanzapine back to 5mg and the amisulpride to 300mg. Been doing that for last two or three days to try and help with symptoms.

There’s been a lot stress with my husband and his business and I have felt this persistent irritable mixed mood and heard Alien threatening me a few times.

Last night when i was in bed he threatened to give me panic attack in shop today if I didn’t get out of bed and go downstairs and back up again.

Today had stressful talk with my husband and he said if he gets seizure it will be my fault. Had a slight breakdown and tried to cut myself and throw things. Knife not sharp enough to make me bleed but at least it stings nice. I … um… I don’t know what to do.

I’m so tired of being strong. At least hubby accepts I don’t want kids. That would do me completely in if I had to have them! I’m scared for my marriage when I get ill like this… I don’t want to fail in it like I’ve failed in so many things in life. Can’t even look after myself properly or paint. So how can I save my marriage? I’m scared.

[Norlane]

I think you are somehow exhausted. I am not sure what exactly went wrong in your life, but I think you need to relieve your stress.

[dandydinmot]

Hi there sou d’s like yourbhavi g a rough time of it I agree with you on.the children thing I am so glad I never had kids.
If your husband has a seizure it sure isn’t your fault just sayin not very nice of him to say that to you. Hang in there.

[LilyoftheValley]

It’s not fair to him for you to throw things and cut yourself when you’re upset. I think you should work with a therapist on dialectical behavior therapy. It helps you learn and apply emotion regulation. And that would help your marriage a lot.