Anybody else ever think they’re in hell? I know @Zoe @Joker and @anon84628834 have had it. If you have had the thought, what made you guys think you were in hell? For me it is the constant gaslighting. Anytime I ever stabilize I get torn right back down
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I had a dream i was in hell. I was about to get whipped by a burning whip for talking. Then i go stretched out till i exploded and select parts of me stuck on daggers on the wall. It was brutal and im glad i woke up.
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I’m late on my meds today and I got triggered by FAcebook so this thread is the result lol
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Yes, although since, my medication increase, I haven’t really experienced it. But have experienced somatic hallucinations like snake biting my heart, cotards delusion + extremely low appetite and major depression, and accusatory voices. I’ve had the delusion both as a place and as state of being that I fear I’m in.
Hell itself is a delusion. It’s one of those ideas that basically anything you think about it is going to be a delusion. The quality of the idea automatically puts it in a certain region of the brain that is badly affected by schizophrenia. Like other ideas related to religion.
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For me it was just full blown delusions. And voice telling me. And other types of hallucination
It was not pleasant 
I’m on a plane right now and I can’t take my cbd so my delusions are acting up… this is fun lol
You’re okay. We are here to remind you that the delusions are not real even though they feel real.
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Thanks. Do you think i am in denial about reality? And if so, how?
I think there are levels of suffering… some people can handle a lot, others think that a mosquito bite is hell. So maybe it depends… can’t speak for anyone else, but my life has certainly be a form of hell, consistently. With the exception of good things happening. But when I am in pain and suffering, it feels like a kind of private hell.
There are days I cannot handle it, and I just want to sleep… sleep is my only escape that works. It calms my mind.
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I don’t really know. But from what I read so far you seem to understand that you are getting delusions but they feel real and it seems like maybe it’s exhausting to fight that feeling. So you just kind of accept it? I’m not sure though I might be wrong?
How do you feel? About it.
BTW I’m honestly not sure @crazydiamond444.
I know you are trying your best and that is awesome in its own right.
I know what you mean. It is subjective but When i was even worse off than i am now I felt pretty much the exact same way
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I feel like I make you uncomfortable. Idk maybe I’m imagining things.
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Anyway I think I will avoid you cos it hurts me
Yeah I guess i’m fighting it, but i’m only fighting with myself… my dad told me that i thought my way into this and that i can think my way out… i don’t know if it is that easy. I want the world to be real. To be a solid object that has nothing to do with me but I can’t help but wonder sometimes because of certain coincidences beyond what i have already talked about. I don’t think that people like you are watching me, but it seems like someone has to be for everything to make sense.
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I’m sorry i hurt you. I would never intentionally hurt you and you don’t make me uncomfortable at all. I appreciate you supporting me and being there for me. It means a lot
Im starting work I’ll get back to u. 
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But just wanna say quick I won’t be offended or hurt if I ever trigger u feel free to mute me if that happens. I would understand
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I feel like me triggering you is a far more likely scenario. Seems like i’m always triggered by something, so that is a “me problem”. You have nothing to do with my instability, don’t worry