You may have noticed but I haven’t been doing so well. I have been trying to help myself and I frequent the crisis lines etc. But I could really do with some family support.
I phoned my mum today but she said she was watching sport so to call back later. I waited for the match to finish and phoned back. My mum was distracted and distant and the call lasted maybe 30 seconds. I was about to ask for help but my mum finished the call.
Ten minutes later and after so much anguish I phone my mum and just say outright that I need help. All I hear is dad in the background snarling “Now! Put the phone down now!” Mum finishes the call.
How can people get so unkind? They constantly tell me I am a burden and how much my illness affects the family. I got stick one time for being discharged from hospital and they said that meant I would have to rely on them again.
I don’t think they have ever done even a cursory Google search on sz. They are so ignorant. What is worse is that they always say “what would you do if we weren’t here?” Implying I can’t count on them for jack. I say “but you are here… Cradle to the grave and all that”
At this point they usually threaten to call the police and have me removed from their house.
I am so upset.