I start school again this fall and I’m so nervous. After a three year break, I have two classes left before I can graduate and hopefully continue on. One class is online and then I have a 5 hour science class with a lab. I’m terrified of going and somehow embarrassing myself or maybe I won’t know what I’m doing and fail. What if I had to give a presentation! I wouldn’t dare! Or maybe I could do it…
I could really use some words of encouragement, good vibes and help. I wish I had a friend in person. Everything has been harder the past few years or 20.
I don’t know. I feel like if I fail at this then I’ll never be able to do anything again when this really needs to be a stepping stone. I’m taking medicine and I’m better.
I’m a full time student, honors and research and scholarships and crap.
Just fight through it. We need more of us walking stages instead of being pushed into psych wards in wheelchairs.
Coffee if you have negative symptoms.
Good luck. It’s what I do. It can be done. I’ve given presentations and defended term papers and crap. Just focus on knowing the material not the people.
I’m sure an intelligent person like you can handle school. They’re lucky to have you in their program. Once you get started the butterflies will go away and you’ll get into work and study. I’m sure you’re up to it.
I first got diagnosed at age 19 with paranoid schizophrenia. I spent the first two years suffering while going in and out of hospitals. When I was 22 I got out of a hospital I had been in for 8 months. A lot of stuff happened but I started college when I was 24; I took a few classes then I stopped. I didn’t go back again until I was 30 years old, so there was about a 5 year gap. I was physically attending by the way, But I stopped college when I was 35 . Sorry for all the numbers, I’m just trying to make a point. I didn’t take any more classes until I was 49 and I started taking online classes.
So I had many years between courses, classes aren’t easy but I was so happy I could attend. So I had a 5 year gap where I didn’t attend. I hope you can do this. If you got the intelligence it’s good to use it. You can tough out 1 class, Just talking one class will give you plenty of time to rest up and recharge your batteries between classes. All you can do is try and do your best.
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