I always feel like I’m having to dodge bad intrusive thoughts lately. I doubled my meds working with my pdoc but I still have horrible thoughts that go too far for my taste with what I call “worst case scenario” thoughts. for instance, when I walk into a store I know all I have to say is “stick 'em up” and I’d land in prison. I am NOT tempted to steal or rob. It’s just an example. I am constantly bombarded with upsetting thoughts like that when interacting with the public. and at home most of all, I get these “what if” scenarios like is there a giant tumor in my belly that makes it stick out so far? just worrisome things. horrible anguish I"m feeling. always upset lately. any ideas?
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I worry bad things could happen sometimes, sure. Not quite like you do though. I worry alot about diseases and germs though, for example. Every time my mom visits even if she isn’t here long she never is, I bleach every thing she may have touched contrary to any medical advice it is not contagious that way. I worry about getting flat tires when I am stranded and alone alot too. Well, glad you are working with your pdoc.
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Be at peace with the hypothetical nature of the mind. Don’t let your thoughts define you. Your definitely a good natured person. Everyone deals with this to some degree. Some people even find it entertaining. Maybe find something to keep your mind preoccupied. It could be stress, don’t let it anx you out. Just worry about what happens on the surface.
In your example at least you were recognizing that it keeps you from going to prison, preventing the action.
Your fine man, I don’t like my mind either. Sometimes I do. Having a rough day mood wise so far.
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I think I read somewhere that thoughts like that are related to OCD. Maybe you should explore this with your doctor to see if you suffer from it. There are specific medications that help with OCD.
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thank you Malvok. I used to be diagnosed OCD. I forgot about it it’s been so long. thank you that makes perfect sense.
Makes me think I have ocd. I don’t have the behaviors but I definitely have so mental tendencies. ■■■■ I can’t just forget about. It might be at the core of my symptoms. I wonder how ocd meds work.
Sounds like anxiety
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That’s how I thought of it, in both jukes case and mine. Ocd might make sense as well.
I need some relief from this ■■■■, gotta explore the options.
Had a rough couple of hours things to be settling out now.
There are a host of mental OCD symptoms other than the commonly known cleanliness, organizing, and counting. I’ve had some OCD symptoms for some time, I’m currently on Luvox for them. Here’s a good site with some more info. I’m going to quote a section on violent thoughts as I’ve suffered from them and I know many here do as well.
http://www.ocduk.org/types-ocd
Violent Intrusive Thoughts – obsessive fears of carrying out violent acts against loved ones or other people. Intrusive thoughts include:
- Violently harming children or loved ones.
- Killing innocent people.
- Using kitchen knives and other sharp objects (compulsion will include locking away knives and sharp objects).
- Jumping in front of a train or fast moving bus.
- Poisoning the food of loved ones (compulsion will include avoiding cooking for family).
- Acting on unwanted impulses, e.g. running someone over, stabbing someone.
- Thoughts about accidentally touching someone inappropriately, with the aim of hurting them.
Most sufferers with these types of fears often end up labelling themselves as a bad person, simply for having the thoughts. They falsely believe that having the thoughts mean they are capable of acting upon them. The constant analysing and questioning of these disturbing aspects of OCD becomes incredibly upsetting and because of the nature of the thoughts many sufferers are reluctant to open up to health professionals to seek help, fearing they may be labelled.
A person with these types of intrusive thoughts will avoid public places like shopping centres and other places, where social interaction may be required, to avoid coming into close contact with people that may trigger the obsessive thoughts.
To sufferers and non-sufferers alike, the thoughts and fears related to OCD can often seem profoundly shocking . It must be stressed, however, that they are just thoughts, and they are not voluntarily produced. Neither are they fantasies or impulses which will be acted upon.
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that’s it !! thank you Malvok so much.
when you stopusing/drinking you get all your emotions back, the emotions that you have been numbing for a long time this is going to be an emotional rollercoaster ride and its going totake time. please read living sober by alcoholic anon.
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I’m dating a girl with OCD and I had it when I was an early teen. The intrusive thoughts sound awfully familiar but I think schizophrenia confounds a diagnosis?
I get intrusive thoughts about sex and violence sometimes, not very often. More like fantasies, I am afraid to admit.
I used to get ocd thoughts about jumping out of a moving car. Obvs it wasn’t something I wanted to do but the compulsive thought was there. It made for uncomfortable journeys. Luckily I don’t get it any more. Like dandy said. You’re sober for the first time in years and that can probably account for a lot of what you’re feeling. X
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I get those violent intrusive thoughts, too. But I was never diagnosed with OCD. Had untreated panic disorder for years before I got diagnosed with sz for the first time.
My negative symptoms don’t take the form of OCD. My negative symptoms are more like: I don’t want to leave my house, (not because I’m anxious, but, just because I don’t want to go anywhere), I don’t want to clean my house, bathe or brush or floss my teeth, I don’t want to take care of my yard. In fact, I don’t want to do anything but surf the internet, pray and attend daily mass, (that is the one place I will go). Lately, and thankfully, I have been able to make myself bathe in the tub at least one time a week. Before, I was going as long as 3 weeks without bathing. So, I think I am getting better in that way.
I don’t know if my negative symptoms are caused by my illness or the medications.
I am sorry your getting hit with those. I hate them too.
I’m having an OK day and out of no where… my brain convinces me I’ve harmed someone, done something horrid to people and I’m in deep trouble. That if I go to a specific place I won’t be able to stop myself from acting out.
It used to be much stronger and more upsetting when I was younger.
It’s still a fight sometimes…
It sounds like have a plan in place… talk to the doc and let him know this is uncomfortable for you.
I hope you feel better soon.
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