I’m afraid satan is taking over and that lucifer is in my head running amok. I’m having a hard time seeing the real picture and I’m having a hard time translating all the fear of the worst possible case scenario turning out to be true and right in front of my face.
I’m being challenged by the devil and it’s a huge trap that you can’t walk away from.
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Man, call your pdoc or go to the ER, you’re not being challenged by the devil for sure.
I’ve been mowing the lawn, making business deals, and interacting with people fine I don’t think the ER is needed. I’m just very symptomatic and I watch the stupidest youtube videos.
I’ve noticed that there’s been a hate and fear campaign on youtube with stuff about the illuminati and world relations. I even thought one of the songs I posted on here by (they might be giants) was actually a satanic nursery rhyme. I just see evil all around me I mean I’m doing work and getting my day done…but there’s ALOT of evil around me.
Seriously, lay off the conspiracy stuff, that’s not good for you, and not the truth either, just conspiracy theories, imagined by some random dude with nothing better to do to appeal to the minds of the many.
You’re not making much sense either, with the evil thing, there always was evil in the world and it’s not that much, are you on meds?
It’s here I can vent and get a second wind against the illness. And you’re right these videos just pop up and I watch one and then my whole youtube is flooded with them. I really don’t think they’ll help anyone.
I forgot to take my morning meds and got them in me with a lunch dose…pretty much the case.
Maybe that’s why than… We need to take the meds every day at the same time. There’s a bio cycle but I forget the name
I know I’m very absent minded and haven’t been sleeping well. Hence missing the morning dose of meds totally screwed with my head. That and these stupid illuminati videos all over youtube. I’m fricking sick of hearing about the illuminati!! I’m going to calm down, 2nd day no cigarettes and I’m not in the best sorts.
Is it okay to tell you that the illuminati thing is completely overrated? There was in fact a secret group with that name like 200 years ago but they all disbanded and it ended.
I heard saying that the hype was about someone that thought they didn’t really break up, probably some troll on the internet decided to make a conspiracy theory off of it. 
I genuinely hope that’s the case cause I hear nothing good or right about them.
Well, don’t believe what you see on the internet, man! It’s the internet! Unless it’s from a completely reliable source, don’t buy it.
Would you believe it if someone was shouting in the streets that the end is near? You might doubt it for a second, but you continue on with your life. It’s the same with conspiracy theories on the web.
A ha you’re not the only one there.
Just stop watching that stuff if you can.
It may be totally real, but its just upsetting and doesn’t help anything.
Yea then I need morning meds and it all goes off the rails.
Just slow down, relax, don’t watch upsetting stuff.
Sometimes you can take a nap and you forget all about it.
I suggest not letting it spin out of control.
Take charge. Or have someone else distract you.
I dunno, my hallucinations are really something else but we have to keep them in that catagory: hallucinations.
I’m a vet, so I was really involved with the government during my young years. Now, I see much discourse and damage to the nation. I don’t see good things and then you try to find out the news to make a difference and all this illuminati garbage shows up it’s like there isn’t an option you have to deal with the illuminati today because internet trolls can’t do anything else I’m so dang tired of hearing about them, dealing with them in my hallucinations, and the rest of the shank.
I may have a knife in my back but I can still walk and talk just fine, but I’m really fed up today honestly.
I get that, maybe talking on and on about it is not helping you.
It sure can’t be easy to fight a war that is so heartbreaking as this one, my heart goes out to you. Political decisions, corporate decisions and lobby’s decisions influencing actual lives of innocent people is no joking matter. With your ptsd you really shouldn’t be dwelling on youtube videos that make the ideas worse.
If you want to discuss it more openly and in a more educated and sober way, you can join Quora for example, there’s a lot of good liberal talk there, and conspiracy theories don’t last there at all.
I was 19 in afghanistan, and turned 20 there. I’m now 33 years old and it’s the 15th anniversary of 9/11.
I don’t even want to get involved anymore, I see everything I worked so hard for crumble before my very eyes it’s horrible.
I don’t think the government understands how much they have abused and endangered americans.
Yeah, I know. It’s trully disconcerting.
What can you do to distract yourself?
No too much, you can’t ignore them when they’re beating and raping you you know? They want me to follow them unconditionally and destroy myself for them. It’s a rough situation but my family, my girlfriend, and all my past co workers know and help. I don’t know where I’m going next except I never want to hurt anyone again. I don’t want to be forced into a predicament like that again. It’s a horrible predicament and it’s against our god given laws you know?
You won’t go back to the army, and you won’t hurt anyone ever again if you don’t want to. I assure you that, whatever thoughts your illnesses give you, doesn’t mean you’ll act on them.
You need to turn it around, transform it into something positive, for a community. Of vets, of szs, of both. Is there something like that you can join or form?
I have a organization I’m a member of. It’s called: Guitars For Vets, (GFV).