Has schizophrenia made you bitter?

DX'd - Sz/SzA
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I have very abusive voices. At first I was hurt and bewildered, now it’s like I’m in a vicious feedback loop with them. I think angry responses, and they respond with angry responses to those angry responses. As such it just escalates and nothing good comes of it.

I just want the voices to stop, the sz to stop, and to still be able to live my life. What do I mean by living my life? Enjoying my friends and family, doing a little unimportant art and writing, listening to music, and finally being able to relax. Why is that so impossible sounding?

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I want to recommend a supplement that has made my schizophrenic life significantly easier and more comfortable.

I wish it were cheaper though. But personally it’s really worth it.

There’s another poster on the board, Polar-Faz, who takes it too, and he has good results so far, but he’s really early into it.

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It is to thus the ‘bitter blink’ (for me) I’m going daily life suffering the worst pain in that doesn’t allow me to cry or anything else it just taken me to come with it
Further more it just means I can out some of what I heard

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Something like:

And if my strength is measured these things , I’ve grown bitter though strong.

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I’m sorry ladybird. I know what you mean, I am in a daily battle with negative thoughts. I try not to be bitter but my struggles have made me more bitter for certain. Being grateful for the things I have other than schizophrenia really helps me out. I completely relate to you, except that I have visual and physical hallucinations. I’m glad that you have creative pursuits that help you. You said you like listening to music, that’s great, me too! Have you tried making music? I ask because I find engaging the sense that is hallucinating in a distraction helps me relax a lot- it never takes it away, but it is a good distraction…like for visuals I watch a TV show or paint. Visual things. The paintings are never my best because it’s hard to focus on what I’m doing but they distract me so I can relax my mind. Dunno if this is a great suggestion or not, but it’s something that works for me. Good luck to you my friend.

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Music helps me to stop the voices, I listen to music on my cellphone 24/7 even when in the shower.

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I’m over schizophrenia. Bitter I’m in an alleged time loop though.

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I’m not bitter. I’m a bit sad for the potential in me that’s lost of wasted, and I’m sad for missed opportunities.
somes I even get angry that I have to deal with this, but not bitter.

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I feel a longing feeling when I see joggers out running (I know how good that used to make me feel)

I kind of feel sad about missed relationship opportunities (not just romantic)

but I like to believe that it is all happening like this for a good reason
:crazy_face:
it is how I make myself feel better about all of this

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Just gave you a like to encourage you, didn’t want you to misunderstand me.

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The only thing that has a hope of stopping the voices is a med. Maybe consider Clozapine if it gets too much.

To answer your question, I was bitter for years. But that’s faded away recently.

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I don’t know if it is bitterness that I feel but I wish that I could focus more with art. I am seeing some cool reference photos but they have so much detail IDK if I could do that :frowning:

I might give it a go and see but it is challenging

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I don’t feel bitter about my sza but I feel sad about all the things I missed out on or neglected to do.

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No not really. The voices have gotten nicer, I have met people with worse lives, and I have come to understand things better.

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When my voices first started, it was awful, all kinds of name calling and anger from all party’s.

I noticed a real breakthrough when I started being civil with them and not reacting in anger. Take the wind out of their sails by ignoring them (distractions) or being kind to them even when they are horrible. You seem like a nice person, do not compromise yourself by turning bitter! Hope this helps

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SZ did make me bitter. I wasn’t bitter before my SZ.
I was pleasant.

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i get it. in my case i had acute sz for a long long time. i am very bitter about all my best years being gone and wasted to sz.

don’t let that happen to you. take charge of your life, sensibly. make it go the best you can.

i hope this helps. judy

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Maybe you could talk to your pdoc about changing your med’s. Living with abusive voices is no way to live. If you could just get the chemicals in your head balanced you could have the things you want.

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I never had voices,but recently I heard music I listened to regularly playing on my mind?Is that consider hearing voices?

Sz has definitely made me feel bitter,I thought and felt my quality of life is reduced 30-40% because of sz?I am still lucky there were people around me and I am not actually alone even though I am not socialable

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