My dream was to play soccer for a division 1 school in my home town. I played high school but because I had social phobia it greatly effected my performance on the field. I was only at like 25% with my performance. I wouldn’t eat enough and I kept wigging out during every game. I had 1 scholarship offer but it was a division 3 school. I didn’t except the offer. But I played at a Jr. college my freshman year. So what dreams did you lose to mental illness?
Right now I should be a Captain flying for United Airlines.
Now never in this life.
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To be a professional Figure Competitor and Internet entrepreneur in the Fitness and Beauty genre’s. I went from working out 5 days a week to not working out at all and as far as beauty? ha…I barely take a shower. I am a different person. I don’t have the ambition and desire it would take to accomplish those dreams. I drag my dirty, tired, lazy ass to Community College in the hopes of getting a ‘job’ that pays decent some day.
I’m sorry to here that. Hope things work out.
Thank you 
You too. I have also had a lifetime of Social Phobia that I have tried to ‘gut’ through. It was worse when I was younger. I was too naïve to get help. That was before mental illness. I had Social Phobia, Anxiety and Panic attacks. No fun. I still have it. It’s hard to get up in front of the class and talk but it was worse when I was younger. I am grateful it has gotten better.
Schizophrenia, vandals and thieves have ended any chance of retirement, now I have to work till I drop in a lot of pain at the same time
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I wish… I’ve been dreaming ever since I got SZ…
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There’s always another dream around the corner.
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I should have gotten my medical degree ten years ago, but my first psychotic break killed that notion my first year of med school. 
I’m pretty much over it, though it wasn’t easy to accept. Within an hour of discharge I was on campus picking up scribe notes and going to the library to study, desperately trying to get caught up (I actually was still a bit psychotic at that moment). I thought I could still do it, even after I ended up back in the same hospital a month later. The doctors told me that what I was doing, staying in school and trying to pass my classes, was like trying to run a marathon on two broken legs. I think that was a pretty good analogy.
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I got sz late in life so I was able to run the course of my dreams naturally getting lost in all the choas of life like most norms do.
sorry to hear that. What do you do now? career-wise
My doctor told me that I should feel like I broke my leg in 5 places. I asked if ie oils ever be able to ski again and she said, not expert trails.
The worst part about having a psychotic disorder mis that it robs you of your dreams and steals precious time from your life. I will never be able to marry have a career or even have friends now that I have this problem. It’s a “life ender” I don’t care what they say.
You can’t live like this.
It should be looked at as a national priority to find better treatments for these illnesses and save the hundreds of thousands of lives that are literally just wasting away behind closed doors.
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going to college full-time has been a dream that’s been crushed by my sz. even if I had the money, the social environment would be too much for me. the best I would do is apply for online college courses, which can be very whimsical and scammish. I can probably attend college part-time though.
also, being a self-employed tutor was a dream that I had to abandon. even though private 1-on-1 tutoring sounds cool, I’ve had a lot of bad experiences. I just can’t communicate with people and I end up hurting them or being used by parents.
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Johnny rotten was a friend of mine. Oskabivblle ishksbit
I have two part-time jobs, teaching at a community college and working as a pharmacy tech. I’m not sure I could handle a full-time job, even though my two jobs add up to five days/week.
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It can make forming friendships very difficult, but it is possible. I went through periods of not having any friends, but I’ve lucked out and been able to make a few, though I really only have one good friend. I’ll probably never have a real career, though, and yeah not sure I’ll ever get married again. My six-month marriage ended two months after a psychotic break; she couldn’t deal with it, and couldn’t see spending the rest of her life living that way.
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yea I wasn’t exactly taking the world by storm before I got diagnosed with what I think is schizoaffective disorder. But I was popular, had friends, never had a problem with girls, was pretty smart. Now I just don’t trust my mind enough to get back out there. Ive had 8 psychotic breaks, and Im tired of getting back up again. Its really frightening living with a serious mental illness like sz. Especially if you were normal once. I can’t believe that I just can’t function like a normal person. Its like something in me got destroyed and it will never come back.
I get treated like a dummy by people that didnt even go to college. The guy pumping gas functions better than i do.
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Well that is interesting because my symptoms manifested 2 years before I got my college degree. I could say no because I didn’t get acceptance letters from any colleges I applied to for my phd. Also my grades went from mostly As and some Bs to Cs around the time my symptoms started. I’m betting the GRE I took around that time could’ve been affected. If the disease made me any dumber that could’ve jeopardized my chances to get into a good school. Of course I don’t know to what extent the damage is. Also I still managed to get a decent GPA so that wouldn’t have been different.
Also the jobs I’ve been applying to don’t even know that I’m schizophrenic and it is very difficult to get one. So maybe it cost me my phd, but I don’t see how it affected my ability to get a job. Although I wonder if some of the other things like insomnia could’ve affected my ability to keep my census bureau job. Definitely the alogia made me look bad.
Also something else to ponder is that do the affect of schizophrenia on the brain happen before symptoms even manifest. That could possibly mean that maybe I could’ve gotten better grades all along.
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I got a art scalar ship back in high school, but family felt I should stay working the farm in sted. after get two deplumes I went on in auto body in the factorys farming wasn’t cutting it. didn’t like dealership work, so I toke up parts making . and yes I’m the guy that painted the stickers that went on the nuclear stilt bombers.
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