Am angry at the community mental health team for changing nurses on me mid worst episode in 5 years without any notice. It really makes me feel incredibly uncertain, uneasy and has added to my problems significantly.
I can’t shake the feeling that giving my nurses my hanging paraphernalia and sharp objects has caused a huge fuss in the department. Even though it was the nurse on call over the weekend who suggested I give them my suicide items.
It makes me feel incredibly unwanted and I am full of the feeling that I now have the reputation of a demanding, trouble causing monster that no nurse wants to touch.
It makes me not want to contact the team anymore. I have been feeling very ill this afternoon but after my last interaction with the team there is no way I’m going to contact them.
I don’t imagine they view you as a demanding monster at all. I think they’re probably just doing their jobs, and I think the nurse change-up probably didn’t have anything to do with you or your behavior. Like you said, the nurse on call suggested you surrender your suicide items – they’re not going to judge you harshly just because you complied. I think you made all the right moves, I think you should keep in steady contact with the team, and I think you should be easier on yourself.
I have been quite paranoid in my life, and it seems like you are this way right now. Please remember that the disease heavily influences your thinking.
And never, ever stop reaching out for help. Don’t isolate!
@anon35166066 This is not a time to alienate yourself from your nursing team. You need all the support you can get. Unfortunately nursing staff does change at the most inopportune of times. It’s not personally directed at you though. Please do what is needed to keep yourself safe and get through this difficult time.
I just think this whole situation has been handled terribly. Thing is the only one I can complain to is my previous nurse, who is now the team leader. She is worst of all.
I once left 12 messages with her over a six week period and got zero replies.