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Tired of this!

My voices are relentless, trying to destroy me, and it’s been going on for 31 years. I’m just about gone, they have been successful. I’ve been alone since I was hospitalized in March and I have always been very self destructive. God does not help, he says he’s God! I am so tired of this I’m thinking of doing something bad so a mental institution will accept me for life.

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Cheer up pal! It’s not so bad! You feeling better now?

Please dont do anything bad I know it’s hard but believe me if you do anything bad you wont be treated nicely by them. Are you on any meds.i know meda are hard but they will reduce you feeling like this.

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Maybe a med adjustment or a change @Jinx?
I hope you find some peace of mind. Don’t give up.

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I’m on plenty of meds of course. My Alter ego wants the whole world to bow down to him in worship. I say that’s a bit egotistical. He’s as mean to me as Adolf Hitler. I am him but he doesn’t see the truth. I tell him it’s not so bad to be of questionable sexual identity, just he celibate if you need to be. Don’t go playing the blame game all day. Life’s not fair, unjust things happen. But he can’t hear it, he just goes on and on abusing me. I’m not dissociative, it’s a Self.

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Is he or both a cop?👮🏻‍♂👮🏻‍♂:policeman:t3::policeman:t3::policeman:t3::policewoman:t4::policewoman:t4::policewoman:t4:

@jinx have you tried Clozapine ?

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I felt better after posting. Things had just gotten so outrageous I had to put it out there in words. I don’t know why my Alter would be so angry at me for forever, he has been very successful in influencing how I think. It’s proof he is really me. People, don’t do absolutely everything your voices tell you to; if they really are God He or She will forgive you for disobeying Them.

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I don’t like clozapine, but was on it once and did great. It is an anti psychotic that is in a class of its own.

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I’m not sure if your hearing God or hearing Adolf Hitler, but that would be very upsetting.
You may be suffering from delusional thinking.

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what is the questionable sexual identity?

I don’t want to talk about my sexuality, except to say you shouldn’t have self-hate. Funny thing is, I do have some delusional thoughts, and people on this forum seem to be very good at recognizing theirs and that there are a lot of people in the world who believe in crazy things who aren’t diagnosed. The imagination is not dependent on faith. So what gives it its power? That’s my problem, indulging in possibilities.

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