Everything is back to normal now.
I felt everything was pointless and wanted to drink to self destruct basically.
I’d become a bit of a danger to myself. But I’d also lost insight into how bad I was feeling.
But like I said everything is ok now.
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Glad you are doing better now @everhopeful.
Take care of yourself.
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Sorry to hear you’re having a bad time. I understand drinking when feeling bad, as I used to do that myself.
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I’m sorry you went through that, @everhopeful.
Happy to hear you’re feeling better.
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Glad you had the strength to not drink. It is only a temporary solution. 
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Glad your doing better
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Don’t drink!!! Well you know better than me telling you.
1 is too many and 1000 isn’t enough
Good you’re back to norm!!
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A beer once in awhile is ok?
'Fraid not. I’m an alcoholic. 6 years sober. So the only reason I’d have to drink would be to kill myself basically.
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I’m sorry. I didn’t realize it was that dire for some people. Congrats to all those that are sober!
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@everhopeful I’m proud of you for staying sober and I’m glad you are feeling better.
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Almost is a powerful word. You fought a demon and won that battle! Reward yourself. You have proven that when it gets tough, you can do it.
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Hi @everhopeful
Sending lots of positive energy your way. Please don’t give up.
Sometimes things get difficult but we need to persevere. My therapist said you’re gonna have good and bad days, when you have a bad day you have to conceal it with pills, meditation, music, exercise, just take a Benzo and nap for 2-3 hours, distract yourself, until you feel better.
BTW I’ve been taking a very strong Hemp oil, it’s working great, do you think you are interested?
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Thanks. I’ll keep hemp oil in mind.
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Im sorry, man. They say willpower is a ‘finite thing’.
I’m sure you already know that. But as a fellow alcoholic (and someone who has no Sz representation ‘in his family tree’ we have 3 big things in common and with the latter it can feel like it’s ‘all your fault’.
Maybe try to identify other aspects of your life that may be drawing from your willpower if that makes sense.
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Kudos for winning the battle. Now, you can relax.
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Actually Matriarch, the current wisdom suggests it stays with you and picks up where it left off if the person picks up again.
I on my dark days view it as a boa constrictor.
Yes, I realize that it is a cycle. I just meant he can relax at least for now.
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Ok. I am 31 days smoke free and am perhaps giddy at some points. I’m currently dealing with the subject of will power.
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Congratulations. I quit 4 1/2 years ago. I don’t regret it and neither will you.
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