1.) I had my first full blown panic attack.
Which leads me to 2.) I have an urgent care appointment at 7:30 in the morning. (Its actually a walk in so I have to be the first person there.)
3.) Idk how it’s still not normal for y’alls thoughts to be heard and shared like they are everywhere I go… My great grandparents will cut back and fourth between what they’re saying and what their thinking so its more understandle. Instead of hearing two things when they talkout loud. Like it’s so normal for them they’re comfortable just answering eahothers thoughts outloud. Why the ■■■■ doesn’t anyone help me like that? But for some reason I’m the crazy one. ■■■■■■■ out of here with that ■■■■. I hear it everywhere. Its how my family communicates. Even though we’ve never actually talked out loud about it. But whatever they still try to talk to me in my head.
Maybe I just got it all wrong though.
Maybe they can just hear my thoughts out loud for some reason. Maybe I really am the crazyoneand something’s just really horribly wrong with me. But even then… Why the ■■■■ wouldn’t anyone point out the fact that they can hear my thoughts. Um… Its kind of … A big deal… Isn’t it? ■■■■ I don’t know.
Maybe my mind is just shot out.
I’m tired of this world.
Teach me how to be cooler in my head.
Teach me how to have a beautiful mind
Please
Hey @Stillhavehope. Sorry to hear you’re having a panic attack. It’s good that you have a drs appointment first thing in the morning. Maybe jot down some notes about how you’re feeling and stuff you want to talk to the dr about so you can refer to that when you see the dr.
Just remember that AP’s take a while to work. If that is what they give you. I don’t know if what I heard was just voices or thought broadcasting. I thought I had super hearing for a while. It isn’t real though. If you find a med that works for you it is pretty cool. It is almost like you are normal. Anyway just remember that the thoughts you hear aren’t real. You gotta try to tough it out until you get meds. Are you going to see the doctor before you start your job?
I don’t think urgent care would prescribe antipsychotics. I’m looking for a just straight up anti anxiety pill. No SSRI or anything. Just xanax, klonopin, adivan, anything like that. I go to urgent care tomorrow morning then start my job Saturday.
I will definitely keep you guys posted. (I like to belive the thought “my friends on the forums care!”
i think we have all mostly had a panic attack at one time or another in fact i think you are lucky if you dont, you are lucky you identified it as a panic attack though as i thought i was having a heart attack and phoned an ambulance much to my dads dismay i think thats maybe when my dad first thought something was wrong but i’m not sure,
My doctor prescribed Atarax (hydroxyzine HCl) for anxiety. It’s actually an allergy med/antihistamine. I take it occasionally when I have an anxiety attack and it seems to work OK for me. It’s not addictive so could be a safer option than benzos. You might ask the doctor about this tomorrow.
Push for a antipsychotic that isn’t sedating. Abilify is wonderful for it. But benzos should help you with panic of course. Good luck and a great list of symptoms. It’s legit.
gotta find peace with the world as ■■■■■■ up and crappy as it is.
Disregard the people in life who are not good for you. Make a circle in your mind of the people who actually care. It makes it easier to see humans as nicer and considerate while every one else can be the dumb jack-offs they are. Family and decent friends… if you are alone you should really consider all the things your parents have done for you and consider trying to get in contact with cousins and siblings and friends from the past who you really did mesh with… or came a s close to meshing with a possible. Even just hanging out with one of them or having a catch up chat that ends on good terms with closure might allow you to feel people are holding you in good regards out there.
I also think placement in life is key. You have to evaluate where you want to be and what you can and can’t do to get closer to that.
The beautiful mind can be highly amplified by pursuing an understanding of art and architecture… the different techniques and time involved in creating each piece and the time-frames they were created in and what life was like in those times… might connect you with the chunk of humanity that has been considered “beautiful” in mind… if you find any characters between art, sculptures, and literature that inspire you… you might be able to see how you really fit into that side of the world… this sounds presumptuous, but i don’t think it’s to profound to think that every one could possibly fit into that side of artists world. It’s really not competitive… it’s you against your self as you develop your skills… and the fields are diverse… likely find something you’re really good at.
The other side of having a beautiful relation to the world is meditating on love and peace. Not unrealistically… not like a hippie… but what kinds of love, peace, and positivity can you find in the life you have now.
i think thats maybe when my dad first thought something was wrong but i’m not sure,
