I just went out for my lunch break and when I was having a cigarette I got really self - conscious and started thinking everyone who was passing me by were spies and sociopaths out to attack me.
I’m back safe in the office now with my friendly team but I feel trapped. How am I going to get home?
This is really upsetting. And unsettling.
I apologise for any spelling or category errors, I’m on my phone.
Thanks for reading.
Just take a deep breath it’s okay.
Yes remember to breathe. If you remember the breathing technic for anxiety take a deep breath in hold it breathe out slowly. Much the same as taking a drag on a smoke. It helps calm and focus the mind.
Thank you both very much.
I’m sorry you went through this, don’t forget the two trains!
thats a shame, i hope your paranoia isnt getting worse, do you think someone could give you a lift or something, do you know anybody that could walk you home, maybe you need your med tweaked a little bit, sorry you are feeling like this.
Thanks for the code @Minnii
Thank you @asgoodasitgets
i went out for a cigarette break just before and it was a bit quieter in the city and my paranoia wasn’t as bad.
I’m very worried about catching the tram home though.
Well, it’s possible that some people you pass by are dangerous, but the chances of them being after you are too slim, let along being out to get you, people are way more self absorbed than that 
i like to think everybody has good in them and this helps as well, everybody has bad also but i believe the good outweighs the bad and people are mostly good people with no bad intentions,
i cant function without meds though even at a low dose i get extremely paranoid and cant see any good, idk what causes it but i am blind to the goodness of humanity thats why a good med is essential (if you can find one)
I’m mostly doing really well but I still have these little break through paranoia attacks and “delusions.”
I’m on a good med and I don’t want to change.
I see my psychiatrist next Friday. I didn’t call him today because sometimes I feel like I call him all the time. I called him just last week for something.
I’m on the tram home now. Gritting my teeth wondering is these people can read my thoughts. Hoping no one can hear the music through my headphones. But looking forward to my walk to work tomorrow morning.
It’s amazing how good I feel after that walk.
Hey turtle. I for one think you are working through this paranoia like a champ. You know it’s paranoia, your asking us for help, you caught the tram home anyway, and your doing it all without the help of your pdoc.
Thanks mouseymoo, that really helped!