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Good morning… once again… :cloud: :cloud_with_rain:

It is gloomy but I woke up well. I slept well too.

I had saved a jar of coffee in my fridge I use for emergencies… it does not taste good at all. :frowning_face: I am not sure which coffee it is? I think something from overseas though… :thinking:

I do not want to take more :pill: :pill: :pill: at all. But just thinking about it, it seems when the half life of the medication is about to end… I start having my symptoms of running away… moving… I feel like everything is wrong in my life etc…

It is absolutely from medication imbalance.

When my bf talks to me when I am sick and explains me how nice my life is… and tells me nice words, I feel better in a matter of minutes. This is why I always think I should be close to family. When my sister reassures me that my delusions are not real, I believe her immediately.

He just is too stressed out and tired to try to help me everyday with the same problem… And I can not get myself out of the mindset by breathing exercises.

I need to learn and create some techniques to practice when I have these thoughts of escaping and depression because they are not real.

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You can’t be serious, right? It will pass this weird belief of you soon, are you still going to U.S to travel or something?

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:neutral_face: I am serious. :slightly_frowning_face:
I actually just came from NYC a couple days ago. I had so much fun but I also had a lot of depressive symptoms.

some things are not as I wish them to be in my life but some things are much better than I imagined.
But the depression is getting me.

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You crossed my mind yesterday and I thought I do not see you online anymore. Where did you go?

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He sounds like a good dude. Having schizophrenia is a burden for most families I think. It is good he encourages you still. I’d understand a lack of patience to do it daily. It’s a shame we have an illness without a cure.

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Next to my city, at the country side, and they had no wi-fi there , sorry, but i am back now and hopefully i will post more. P.S i was at some relatives

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