So many bad days behind me. Internal turmoil delusional thinking obsession with hallucinations… It been a rough few weeks.
Today finally a good day. Sometimes it feels like I’m going to get over this illness. That I might silence and sanity again. Normality. Normal people are so awesome. They are all just having a good time. Free from all the ■■■■ that torments me. I want that life so badly and I feel bad for wasting the life I had on drugs and ego.
Yes to me in this moment it is clearly not real. On the surface I am normal. If only I can get the reigns on my mind and bring it back in.
I worked two jobs with this illness and had to quit because it was just hell.
Thank god for a government that takes care of its disabled people.
Best wishes to all of you who have suffered through this. There is hope. I had given up on it but it has rebounded. We can still live out normal lives.