Going Anorexic Again

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I think I’m going anorexic again. I say this because I haven’t ate anything all day, worked out hard, and now I’m proud of it and want to continue. I’m in a weird conundrum where the conglomeration of schizophrenia and OCD might be overlapping. I don’t feel fully autonomous.

My previous anorexic stint was a “bad” one; I lost 100 pounds in five months. The thing is, as I have struggled with this all my life, I don’t find it to be detrimental to my health. In fact, when I was super thin, I was proud of my body and have felt that it was the only accomplishment I have ever done in my life. There’s a level of pride I have in it, and thats fueling my desire to go anorexic again.

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Please don’t do that to yourself. Extreme weight loss in short periods of time is detrimental to your health even if you aren’t aware of it. It’s very unhealthy. Do you want me to find you articles that discuss that?

Also, please tell your pdoc and/or therapist about these thoughts

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Yeah, that’s what my family is saying, too. I struggle with this a lot.

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Are you working out to lose weight or build muscles?

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Don’t do it that’s your body screaming not to do it

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Lose fat. 151515

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Probably. 151515

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How do you feel physically?

Your body is gonna breakdown without food.

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Physically, I’m tired and exhausted, but thats because I’m at the beginning stages of this. Last time I got over it pretty quick.

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stop john raven thats your body telling you to eat healthy

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Its a weird predicament I’m in. I know last time that I almost died, I was blacking out even. But at the same time, I did lose 100 pounds in 5 months, and that felt great. And now I think that I do not need to starve myself to lose weight. But its just hard, because it was the only way I’ve been able to lose fat. I should probably follow the counsel of my family and you guys to stop being anorexic. Maybe the anorexia never fully left me. Maybe the meds have been masking it all along, and now that I’m finally off weight gaining meds, its reappeared. I know for a fact that I still have body dysmorphia. My dad also had anorexia when he was younger, so I guess I should trust him more than anyone.

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I have a lot of issues with restricting my food intake to an extreme degree through my life. I was able to recover quite a bit for a while but recently I had a pretty bad relapse into it. I know how tempting it is because honestly it feels good to lose the weight and it always made me feel like I was in control.

But it’s absolutely not worth it it’s just as bad as an addiction.

Honestly I recommend trying small steps to getting back to eating a more healthy balanced diet. I started eating again with small healthy meals so it wouldn’t stress me as much to eat. And then just keep adding a little more until it’s a healthy amount of food. Another suggestion is to eat something small with higher calories.

I know it’s tempting but please try to take steps towards recovery.

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I would seek out professional help if I were you @John_Raven

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Yeah I make light of it only to try to convince you to seek professional help but it’s good that your father knows what you’re going through you should talk to him stat

I shouldnt have made light of it @John_Raven

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You’re fine, no need to apologize. Thank you for your advice, this is a quite tricky state of mind for sure.

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You call it anorexic,I call it fasting. I know the feeling, transforming that fat into energy.

Last time I did that went into manic state. I do not recomend it.

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@Davincii do not encourage someone to contonue disordered eat.