Going a little crazy again

Unusual Beliefs
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I dont know what it is, but i’ve been browsing the darker sites again and it’s been making me feel a little strange knowing what i know. I dont even know why i keep going back, im doing fine irl, got friends, dating, close to getting a job and all my needs are met. But i keep going back to look at esoteric and conspiracy type stuff like it has any meaning to me. Even if the conspiracy is real, what can i do about it.

Or maybe i’m just looking for people to talk with this stuff about because it has always been one of my interests. Closure? idk

I’m not sure anymore, i might phone the mental help line soon and see what they think. Even if all they tell me is to take my pill and eat something or try sleep. I’m a little manic again and pacing in a circle thinking about the esoteric stuff, and boy is it not sitting well.

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I went down the rabbit hole… I think I was close to finding it’s end as well.

I’ll tell ya… while I am happy to be versed in the nature of conspiracy theories… they annoy me when I hear about them and they don’t cross my mind by default.

It can be outgrown natural… Like the following insanity just becomes a gross reminder to not go there any more.

Glad to hear you are doing well.

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Many find a hobby that doesn’t trigger you.

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